pretty T!

2007-07-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

my head is ticking. ITS EXPLODING.

ytd vj had a dinner cg!jasmine and apinun joined us and superd generous hanyun treated us to this jap restaurant at revenue house! ITS AWEZOMMEE.just that i wasnt quite satisfied cause i didnt have my fill of wasabiiii.but stilL, thank you so much H-A-N-Y-U-N!or rather, my shepherd shepherd.HAHA.

today went to hc gender cg!gender cg is always so splendid! i thought fungmin teaching was really speaking to me and the birthday surprise is still as touching. finally got to talk a little with my spiritual butt and thanks for the prayer! i dunno what wrong with me today but i couldnt seem to pray verbally fluent today.seok!LETS RLY CATCH UP SOON!I got so much stuff i wanted to tell you today but i didnt have the opportunity to:( oh myzzzzz.PLEASE GIVE ME SOME TIME SOON DARLING.

yes, back to my bomb. i just thought these few days i was rly getting moody and definitely not right. i m so desperate to find the cause of all these. for no reason i just felt that everyone looked pissed and unfriendly suddenly then i dont dare to talk to them: which totally wasnt the case at all. i think i m slowly building up my own world inside my mind, the kind of world i want to live in. this is bad cause i think i tend to daze so much i m beginning to SEE myself living in that world. which means everything i see and interpret in my mind doesnt happen in reality at all. in other words, i m imagining my virtual world has become reality and just absorbed into my virtual world.

BUT up till this point, i swear i m still TIFEN AND IM ALRIGHT.just that my mood is getting my mind a bit warped.

love wins, love always wins.

2007-07-22T20:04:00.000+08:00

hello dudes and dudettes(hopefully its spelt correctly) i m blogging with a super bad mood now which meansthis post could be quite boring.

so my sister is back on fri. i decided to be nice and rush down to airport to await for her return. she brought home super lots of stuff and some are really useless stuff:at night i was so bored i decided to sms seline to come out with me. so we had budget supper at miss clarity cafe.SUPER BUDGET.had a good talk as usual. and oh yea!finally saw Mr H. but ppl who thinks he's hot please look at my mr wang chuan yi frst.HE'S THE REAL HOT STUFF(:

ytd was an eventful day and i m happy. cause i have spent more time dwelling in God's presence! attended the first and last ESS cause i m a victorian. brought ben tay and youzhe and youzhe converted! really happy for him but he looks blur about everything. then after that youzhe's friend, yan shan, joined us and we went shopping a bit then played pool. i really think my skills improved k.JO!I IMPROVED!:D then we were quite late so decided to cab down to riverlife church instead. big meritus orange, van ong, yongcheng were alr waiting for us there. but the zai thing is we managed to reach on time! nubian gents is a black american christian dance group and i must say they are totally fab. i like the christian songs they played too!i felt their passion for God, really. they dance for God. they sing for God. thank you van for inviting me!

today is one of the very few family days we had since eons. i guess it was still heart-warming.
i stupidly hurt my toe while taking escalator. i swear i wasnt oogling at any handsomez.

dear friend, i hope there's no misunderstanding between you and me. i hope i hasnt given you any wrong idea. cont to adore and love that girl. pure, is what i m searching for between u and me.

2007-07-09T21:18:00.001+08:00

hello.
i realised i like to stare at my face in the morning to look out for hairs in my dimples.
i realised i like to look at my ultra small hands.
i realised i like to tiptoe down the stairs and stare at my feet while doing so.
all these make me feel a little more dainty than usual at times. and i will be happy and give myself 2% of love more(:

credits goes to dearest sarah and sexiest tracy!:D

2007-07-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

hello ppl YES TIFEN IS BACK!

tracy i have marked it and i wont suddenly ps again!

HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY!I just packed my room which took me whole 2 hrs plus! it is sooo ready for a revamp ALL DONE/DESIGNED BY ME.100 % tifen's effort plus 7% my mum's help! hahahaha!this is in line with the ridiculous GST hike. if it is gonna rise up to 10%, i would just plead my mum to migrate to australia! YES YES I M SO GONNA DO IT!
i think not exactly, if my mum would allow i WOULD OAR PI SAI (DIG NOSEEEE) WHEN I M DOING STAGE CAM DUTY.HAHAHAHAH!

FROM NOW ON, tifen will just blog about important events that happened ookie dookie pookie dudezzzzz.
1. my birthday!
2. stayover at elaine's!
3. met up with mad and cassiepoo!hahahaha!

yes oh yes my birthday!let me thank all the ppl first
EASTA4!
CA3/4!
VJTT!
S36!
ELAINE!
MEJORAH!
JASMINE LOH.
JASMINE FOO.
HAZEL.
GRACE CHOO.
GRACE LOKE.
WENSI.
SELINE.
LEYI.
JASLIN TAN.
YONGEN.
ZHICAI.
CLARA.
HUIYING.
MAD.
CASS.
REN YING.
SHANTI.
GAV.
VERON CHEW.
RAPHAEL.
SHERN.
JUNWEI.
MELISSA.
MICHEL.
LIXUAN.
YIXIU.
LIXUAN.
leon(your name is small letter cause i had to remind you!)
even if it is a message of "happy birthday" it is greatly appreciated!
thank you jasjorah for the wonderful picnic and thoughtful gift! sarah i love u deep deep! thank you vjtt plus effort of tina's darling for the cake and the "rose combo pack"! thank you leyi and seline for the really sudden guest appearance! i m really really gan dong! thank you eastA4 for the early morning celebration to kick off my superb mood for the day!thank you ca3/ca4 for the one-of-a-kind celebration!though the fireworks choked me a bit, i believe its more like a choke from joy!thank you s36 for the birthday song and all the rest for remembering my birthday!

tifen really feel the LOVE by His people.

actually, i felt quite guilty after the whole day. the night before, i was so sad cause i thought no one is gonna celebrate my birthday with me. as i have told a few ppl, i have arranged to meet all my darlings throughout my birthday bash that i dont have anyone to celebrate with me on my birthday!at first i thought if i go for a spa it will be quite cool and it shows how secure i am!hahaha!but it turned out that i m sad about it.furthermore the only planned thing i know is my Gp tuition and it got me even more depressed. in the end, it turned out that my birthday was really full of lovely and happy surprises!thank you everyone really! i shall specially mention 3 ppl names here.
1. chong kwee fa and tan hak sia! they have sponsered this pampered kid of theirs lots and lots of MONEYYYY for her one week big bash!
2. MY DADDY THE KING! God has really spoilt me. He showered me with lots of love that i know i dont deserve at all. He blessed me so much through His people. i was once surrounded by satan, depression, tears, fear, nightmares, dirt. now, i have returned to His arms and i can be refreshed everyday, at any moment. Because God is a forgiving God, God is a God who provided unconditional love, care and concern. for how many times he cleansed my heart body soul thru and thru and affirm me that i will be all right as long as i am willing to stay in His arms, be an obedient child of His. today, i m surrounded with joy, love, happiness. What can be better than a life like this. though there may be quality tests from Him every now and then but so what! He will mould me, make me, prune me and i will pass all the tests with flying colours! and you will be surprised it is during the tests you felt the much care and concern. after the tests, you will be prouder to be a little christ(:

stayover at elaine's! it was a night of heartfelt talks, a night of silent fun and joy. we may not have done any wild stunts but the talk itself IS A JOY. and i m glad i did treasure that few hours of time limit we are given. we tried to keep ourselves awake and talk till we had enough for the night. i throw out all my worries and sorrows. my fear and happniess. cause its elaine, i never had to hide anything in front of her, i talk to my heart's content, i talk till i drop dead,i talk till worries become a speck of dust which flew off with the wind. thank you so much elaine, and i've got much more to share the next time we meet again(:

yes i met up with mad and cassiepoo! we had dinner at dino, drinking at liquidkitchen(a bar. omg a bar), laughter and more laughter. i dont remember any minute we spend together without laughing or smiling at all. both of them just had to be crappy and irritating that i cant help but smile till my cheek cramp. yes, they are my friends i know at age 17, and we will be friends till the end of the earth. thank you darlings(:

2007-07-01T10:19:00.000+08:00

good morning wo de peng you men!:D my mood is really good today! why?cause i m refreshed by God's words yesterday! tifen is happy happy happy:D:D

shall sum up what i did from last tues!
tues-- it was a 6 hours paper day. MATH + CHINESE LANG= PRICE OF A CAR PLUS 7% GST.ok. my point is.....IT IS SOOOO TIRING, DRAINING. during the chinese paper i felt like i can just die on the spot anytime and the cause would be--TOTAL DEPLETION OF BRAIN JUICES.cool eh! then after that i looked at my phone and i see seline's sms!for some reason i m a bit perked up then rushed down to novena to meet her! we were supposed to study but HAHA. it became a rambling session instead. and because of tifen the whizz kid, we took the wrong bus and had to cab down for gp tuition in the end.YES. THE NEXT DAY MY PAPER WAS MAFFFFFF.

wed--the mafffff paper left me so dumbfounded after it. it was like SHOCKING. but i think God granted me the best wisdom i deserve. last yr SEC FOUR i didnt finish 50 marks for my amath mid yr paper. and it happens again! so i m not deproving BUT IMPROVING since i m J1 now(: must say i really felt like cryin again after it. but i m just like a lost girl trying to hold back her tears. after that went for lunch with some classmates at popeye(changi airport) spent lots of time slacking. and i could see that we were ON ECSTASY. tickled by little things easily.haha. insane insane insane. studied at secret corner with jiajia after that(: and BECAUSE PRINCESS T REFUSED TO STAND ON BUS, we took a random bus out of changi airport, cross the bridge, and take 858! cause 858 will loop at changi airport.HAHA.smart t!(:

thurs-- chem was MIRACULOUSLY the best paper of the whole exams. i m shocked by my calmness during exams too. despite the hiccups during mcq--10 mins left for 15 mcq.pro?DEFINITELY(: was packing my bag outside the hall when shanti come running after me and asked me if i wanna go out with gav and her!SO I HAPPILY AGREED!but just for lunch and shopping at raffles city ok! ate new york new york! we kept koping candy floss like nobody's business.haha. then i decided to take a bus home so that i can have a good sleep! yesssss.the bus trip is 1 hour 15 mins! i did have a good nap without DROOLING.accomplishment Ms/Mr/Mrsssssss(:had a goodtalk with you and thanks for all the encouragement(:

fri-- CHINESE LIT PAPER! yes. this is the second half of my H2 CHINESE LANGUAGE AND LITERATURE PAPER which will take 6 hours in total(: HAPPY?DEFINITELY. mug thru the night the previous night and i just felt hypnotised during the paper. out of 7 qns, i tried by best to answer 5 of them! ya now why? there's 1 qns i purposely left out cause got no time to study. 1 qns i dont even know its tested.HAHA.so i've got so much time i just sleep a while... go toilet wash my facee....for the first time of all my lit papers i actually have the chance/PRIVILEDGES to do these stuff meant for either too pro ppl or too fast ppl. God is working in me! then went home and out to nissin company!had a nice 1 hr interview with the manager and took lots of funny pics. were given 3 weeks supply of instant noodles after that! rushed down to meet yingling at marina square and shopped around! it marks the first day of my one week burfday big bash! the B cube plan(: bought stuff for myself and had dinner with yingling and chialing at kenny rogers! they got a surprise mini celebration for me at starbucks and chialing now owe me one last surrpsie(:

sat--oh my god its service!tracy happily turned down the date which left me VERY BU SHUANG!OHHHH MAANNNNN.i felt so insecure because of her la!:( she's always dao-ing my smses or turning down dates. WHY LIKE THAT?BACKSLIDE LA!HAHAHAH.GOD!ITS HER FAULT! [EVERYONE POINTS FINGER AT TRACY](:(:(:(:so i stole her sheep to go out andhave lunchdate with me instead.talked a lot with chilli ping and i m happy!forced her to help me choose a perfume at sasa then off we went for service! pastor ben does make a good start for the end of exams. his dressng is always WOW! went eating and shopping with madeline after that and we did have a good time catching up. cass didnt turn up! i m angry ok! u better not be absent on fri again! cause tifen really do miss you a lot a lot!and to madeline!i love you!thanks for making it such a wonderful night for me and i m really glad i got to know u in ceejay(: last thing to end the day--a shirt that shouts ALL OF US SCREAM FOR ICE CREAM!how cool can it be?! it is totally designed for tifen!

today is sunday!shopping day! meeting new darlings and will update at the end of the day(:

2007-06-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

dudes, exams are over. so what now. MEETING GOD!!!!service...tomorrow!service...tomorrow
!service.. TOMORROW!:D:D
yup. i m really glad i survived thru yesterday till today.cause almost everyone finished their papers ytd and even those who take H1 chinese dont need to study.so cheena kiddos like me seems like the only ones mugging yesterday when ppl are having fun out there. HOW HEART WRENCHING. but i really thank those who have encouraged me and prayed for me. this period i must say, have been a test to me. test on how much i trust God. christians out there, how many times have you prayed constantly in times of weariness, inconfidence, before exams, facing ridiculous papers? i m proud to say i have prayed constantly, and He is always on my mind! just that i think my times of insecurity and inability to take full control of my emotions this period must have disappointed Him much much still. but thank God for sending His people to constantly remind me He will make a way. xie xie ni men! and oh yea! within this week, i have eaten sakae sushi, popeye, new york new york, kenny rogers, chicken essence everyday!i guess God has also bless me with such good foods to help me survive thru this tormenting week. thank you daddy!

okie okie dokes dokes.
first frontier-- supposedly a 4 days 3 nights camp but i can only make it for 2 days! nevertheless, it has been a fruitful one! credits goes out to my dearest shepherd chuachialing of course and my big big daddy! why?course tifen chose to be sick at the wrong time! well, sumhow i think God purposely chose to make me so sick! i really really felt the sincere care and concern offered by chialing. thank you so much so much shepherd(: tifen really loves you! and of course a big MUACKS goes out to my daddy in heaven! you have touched me from within and assured me much much of my future walk with you. i wanna walk closer and closer to you Lord. i will never want to stray away from You anymore. cause i cant imagine myself going thru life again without you, things will just get out of hand in my hand. but it will always be perfect in ur hands.i strongly believe so.(: my 3 objectives for this camp are
1. receive a vision from the Lord
2. refresh my relationship with Him again.
3.A WORD from the camp.
and they are all fulfilled!praise the Lord.
suddenly i m super sleepy now. shall talk more next entry and of course abt the thai trip!
bye!

2007-06-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

HELLO.
first day of exams and its bad. i tried my best to hold back my tears. but it just flowed when i was on the phone with my dear shepherd chialing. thank Lord for my sisters, especially yingling and chialing, for really trying their best to let me feel more family warmth in the east. thank Lord for giving me such an understanding shepherd whom i can be very open about whatever i m thinking. thank Lord for aloysious who has been a very understanding and caring brother in christ.
thank Lord for seline chan bye byeHAHA. who has been a really great old friend of mine.
posts yet to be written:
1.about church camp
2. about thai trip
3. for seline chan bye bye
4. for my dear shepherd.
5. for my spiritual buttt seok.
6. for you you and you.

God please give me strength wisdom and peace of mind whatever i m faced with. i dont want to cry for the whole wk please.

i m glad. at least i have got 2 things to look forward to after exams:
1.ELAINE WILL BE BACK ON SAT!
2. WO DE SHENG RI!

this year, i really do not care how many presents i've got. but i care about the ppl i want to celebrate with, my jiemuis, my sisters and brothers, definitely, and my family. i have a great plan to disclose my belief to my mum and dad. wish me luck.

i have made a special prayer for you. hope the first day of exams has gone well for you. really hope we can talk more after exams. i m really glad about my decision to just keep it there.

2007-06-07T15:25:00.000+08:00

dagger wagger ragger tagger.
lilin-: haha!fine!i let out one doubles place for ur kids then. see HOW NICE I AM! if it wasnt for ur kids, my kids could have clinched the PRETTIEST/HUNKIEST TEAM OF THE YEAR!HAHA!ITS IN THE GENES:D hmm. i have leh! quite a few. u need the numbers?

brother bear: thank you so much! hey!lets catch up soon ok!you seem to have disappeared these days. 4 more days to camp!:D

tracee: me too! i have a lot to fill you in! :D coffee talk soon ok? yupp! i m so so so excited! though i will only be going for 2 days but i m sure the 2 days will definitely be a whole new spiritual experience still! :D love u darling!

seok: thank you so much too! yupyup. see u tomorrow during WFL! ELLE-OH-VEE-EEE! LOVE YOU!

actually, replying these tags could be my last adrenaline rush of the day. i m shagged. really shagged.

i dont think anyone can squeeze anymore out of me.

there are just so much things to be done. so much things to rly chiong finish before camp and thai trip. how much time have i left? DONT NEED TO REPLY THIS.

i need ur strength daddy.i cant do it on my own anymore. i feel like crying out loud now. i know its a stupid thing to do. its not a way to make me feel better. it cant solve things. but i thought thats the only thing i can do now.
wensi i know i told you not to cry anymore because there is so much love around you. but i m not contradicting myself ok! this is different cause i m just trying to throw a kiddy tantrum here.
i want to cry out loud so that ppl will tell me OH MY U R SO POOR THING LET ME DO THIS AND THAT FOR YOU. ugh.i guess that will never happen.
sometimes i just feel so like a kid, kiddy to the maximum actually. i love whining when nth else seems to be working. i have crazy thoughts of sitting on the floor and start crying like no one's business when things aint going my way. i want ppl to treat me ice cream/candies/chocs like how adults offer kids to keep their mouth shut and stop crying. i want a walking memory planner just like how mothers are to kids. they will check what they have to do, when is their holidays and remind every single thing that is cropping up soon.

i m not a person who is naturally born with good memory. all i can say now is i m busy.
i m not a person who have good verbal expressions.all i can say now is i m drained.
i m not a person who is as strong as what my physical appearance seems like. all i can say now is i REALLY feel like crying.

God, i need to calm down. give me peace at heart, mind and soul. i know i have lots of stuff to be done and i will never forget all my desires for You. i know You have the greatest plan for me and this is just the beginning. Daddy, lets lock pinkies. You can have my promise that i will run till the end of the race no matter how hard and tiring is it. i love you.

i will end this entry by letting out a lion roar, cry and sleep.

THE END.

2007-06-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

GOOD NIGHT MY MAGGOT TAGGOTS!:
lilin-: haha! i shall kindly allow u to be the mini coach since u r my basement 3!:D and being the usual gracious me, i also allow ur kids to be the reserve of my team!hehe. OH!i m flying on 14 june early early morning! wheeeee~i m so excited eh!KIDSSSSS:D hmmm. u can ask ur interact friends? should be can join them anytime one!

seline: thank you seline although u are a totally lousy host! HAHA.the mango is really nice! next time shall be my turn to treat u to nice ice cream ok! wo ai ni!

wensi: hello!u can write one too! i m sure yours will be super romantic la!HAHA

fungg: hello darling fung! thank you! lets pray together to ask God for sustaining growth in us ok! i m so excited when i think about us being in the same church then move on to hope tertiary hope adults and so on and so forth!wouldnt it be so sweet and exciting!:Di love you!

'eunice: YES THANK GOD!haha!if not bio book is damn ex! you must jiayou too!

KONICHIWA AGAIN(:
today is supposed to be a stay home day since i m quite penniless. <> <> <> <> have kept my day busy till afternoon. 2 plus seline tell me she's homing and i decided to go down to her house to try the mango sorbet u enthusiastically recommend.HAHA. BUT ITS RLY NICE! but she was being a very lousy host who asked her guest to lock herself up in the computer room! then she used spoon to scoop out her mango sorbet making it look like to big chunk of swt potatoes. hmpf!:| start studying but end up lazing and rolling around the house.HAHA. nice time spent with her though. peace at heart(
then came home and have dinner. after a short while eugene called and say they were at northpoint so i went out again to meet up with some p6 classmates. some left after a short while then me zhonghuan and eugene went to eat topless 5 at swensens!oh my. i rly love sorbetssss!love love love!

2007-06-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

hello.
i want to bring my friends to know about His love.
i want to be a shepherd.
i want to do great things for God.
i want to go on mission trip in South Africa after As.
i want to get water baptised.
i want to tell my parents that i m little christ.
time is ticking. so much desires.

how can i sustain a long term desire for God?PRAY.

i have never known how great is praying.
a friend halves ur burden.
my God nip my burden.
sometimes i wonder how much must i give to Him then it will be fair and square between us. and i realised, till the day i m meeting Him, i will still not be able to repay the debt i owe Him. no matter how much i do, it will never be enough. but God is a gracious God, he never asked me to repay, never DEMANDED anything from me. He want me to do great things for Him according to my heart. whether i really wanted to. that makes me even more guilty when i strayed from him or being disobedient towards Him.

but sometimes i realised it got hard for me. as most of my jie mei, other than church friends, are either free thinker or sunday christians, i've got to roam around in the world and in God's world in a regular interval. And when i m in the world, i lost God sometimes. i just cant feel His presence and commit a lot of sins unconsciously.thats my biggest worry now. i need to be strongly reminded of God 24/7, no matter which world i m in. i want to be an influential christian, i want to be a christian who can let my friends know that i want to live my life for Him, Him only.

its sad sometimes when ppl dont understand why i like to ramble on about Him and link everything to Him. God, work in their lives like how u work in mine(:

yesterday went for cip and everyone thought it is an easy cip. but because we are dealing with senior citizens , it gets a bit tiring and hard for all of us. it is supposed to be some free checkup for the senior citizens. damn good! its free FULL BODY CHECK plus got goodie bag! then i m supposed to be station at the place where they queue up and wait for a chest Xray checkup. at first early in the morning it is quite easy, just keep sending ppl up cause no much ppl yet. then it got so hectic later i nearly died. i had to keep koping chairs from other stations cause the number of ppl queuing up is omg long. eight chairs become 30 over chairs! then got one guy told me i can just let them stand but i felt so heartache to see them like so weak and still standing to wait! ugh. then me and carmen went to dhoby to study.quite effective i guess.HAHA.but she definitely had a hard time controlling her bladder=x went HMV after studying and i bought my ADAM LEVINE!!!!HEART OH HEART(:

today went studyin at dhoby alone for a while then met up with suet and eunice who watched POTC. ate at yoshinoya and huiying came to join us. walked to nexus for WFL together! think of it i still feels so dumb. i actually forgot to sign up cause i dunno which to sign up for! :| replace suets place for a while and OMG i realised i misplaced my file of bio notes! rushed down to yoshi and luckily its still there. my heart nearly stopped beating:X then geraldine smsed and i have to go! she's such a nut!hmpf! took me half an hour to meet up with her due to lousy conmmunication. but actually because of my phone which loves hanging at the wrong time too.HAHA.then we got quite a lot of stationaries for the thai kids. hope it will be enough to distribute. i m so happy! i m really expecting lots of kids in thai! KIDS ARE LOVE:D:D:D

2007-05-31T21:42:00.000+08:00

this is a long awaited post.

massive busy-ness and a tinge of laziness in life stopped me from blogging. but this period i have experienced a lot of maturity and sudden realisations which gave me a chill when i thought about them.
1. who are the friends that i can be the closest with till the end.
i think there will be so many sustainable friendships in every of our lives but who are the ones that we can be closest with till the end? ppl whom you share secrets with may not be the closest with you. i realised sometimes i tend to share secrets with ppl just to take away half the burden of these secrets. however, some friends i appear physically close with doesnt seem to know all my secrets. this is because these are some special secrets which i am afraid to tell. i am afraid she will change her view of me when i tell her about it. and when i think about this, this special girl's name never fail to appear in my mind. you know who you are. tifen's heart has never been so naked in front of someone before, not even God. cause there are still some things i m afraid to tell it to God, afraid of the consequences. but to you, i never have to worry how i behave, how i am. so true and naked in front of you. or rather, you always know my heart so well. neednt me to tell you, you will ask me dont think it this and that way, and you will always know tifen's weakest side, you will always know the most insignificant things that no one will cry about except tifen. you are like a God sent guardian angel, i just feel like i m so protected with you around. you will know what to say what to do will be the best comfort for me. there will be so many uncertainties ahead of us but i really want to be ur friend till the end. i can dream about us sitting on our rocking chairs and tifen telling you what she ate that day.i really pray to God for this to happen.

2. i m addicted to solo life.
i can still remember last time how i m so addicted to companionship. addicted to the bad habit of wanting friends to surround me 24/7. but during this period, i realized i m feeling happier with solo life, truly embracing it. i find shopping alone, studying alone such a pleasure now. and when i m alone, my mind hasnt been so carefree and clear. when u study in a group, you talk to your friends when u are bored of ur books. but studying alone can let your mind wander to the most beautiful things on the earth. i start to imagine about my dream house, beautiful flowers, lying on the greenest pasture, etc. shopping alone gives you the freedom to try out clothes for as long as you like w/o feeling guilty for letting ur friends wait. do not have to try and catch the slightest twitch on ur friends' faces when you prompted IS THIS APPAREL NICE ON ME? and get affected. well, one can say i will never be affected!SELF DELUSIVE LIARS!come on, it will at least have the slightest bit of effect on you, never can it be ZERO.

3. i really want to do my best for God.
i have experienced so much graciousness from God that i cant contain it in me anymore. i want to give my best for God.i want to tell ppl of ALL nations the goodness of God. i think i can never be so sure of what i want to give and do to someone in my life before.God sent his son who used his blood to cleanse my mind body and soul. how much more can i be grateful for it. who else can let me feel safe and protected, clean and real, other than my Lord.

there a lot of others which i cant share it here. but life's been great and challenging and i m glad about it. God has always been so faithful and theres so much i can thank Him for.

yesterdays bgr seminar got be very uneasy at the beginning, but i m glad i stayed on and i learnt so much. so much comfort.

To: my future spouse.

you may be someone i have already known or someone i will SURE meet in the future. but i thank God who created you.

i hope that in the future we will be sharing common visions and values and serving God really faithfully together. none can be greater and stronger than God centred relationship.

i know you will sure possess a gracious heart. cause i will hide nothing of me my past, present and future dreams from you. you will accept everything of ur fellow sinful human and i thank God again for this.

1 + 1 is definitely more than 3! 1+1 = 9( 2 of us plus 7 kids) you must be someone who loves kids too. if not God wouldnt have planned for you to be my future spouse.

i hope that you will continue to do great things for God and we shall jiayou 'together'.
i shant deny that i m eager to know ur identity but i shall wait.
i believe the day we find each other, it will be the most beautiful day.
cause by then, i know we have done the best on individual part and we cant do greater things anymore unless we have each other. and with both of us hand in hand, we can then do greater and better things for God, for His Kingdom.(:

God loves you.
me too.

tifen

2007-04-29T22:14:00.000+08:00

life's still the same but i m quite excited about the meetups with nytt this 2 weeks.
i m still missing the people who i have always been missing for eg elaine and nytt and my mejorah. but one more person is added to the list now--amy laomuyang. although i dunno why i m missing her cause i am still seeing her on a wkly basis like last time when i m in ce2. it's strange. maybe i m afraid we are gonna drift apart somehow after the trasfer which i really dun want to.

tues went out with carmen and i finally found far coast. bought 2 apparels at F21 after shopping at far east and zara my assets are so in the way:
wed had cg and as usual i had to leave even before woship starts. i really hope cg can start earlier and i wont have to miss out so much:(
thurs vjtt went to collect shirts together! THEY ARE FAB! went shopping around and i cant find my clips which make me sad:(
fri pon math tutorial and went down tp sports hall to support chan liping! ut there isnt math tutorial in the end cause too many ppl are not present: missed her match though. aSses(seline and sandra) really played well and i m proud of them! cheered for rj but really have no means of personal attack. i m still proud of my darling ex-cap AUDREY for doing such a good job and audrey ng!i m sure a lot of ppl will recognise ur effort too! u r ALWAYS THE OUTSTANDING STAR in my eyes:) peiyu! u did well too! start chiong-ing for ur work now stop dotaing and be more hardworking ok! lixuan! u have done ur best, s0 do not be too upset anymore. tifen loves u all the same and i will be sitting on the fence next yr as promised. next yr make a comeback with the may eve and yuchen and joyce ok!:))
sat had service and district meeting before that. realised that kim is actually in east and she's not that bimbo afterall. haha. SHE'S CRAZYY. had unit meeting after that too! did a really bad job for cam ytd and i am sad:(( but huiying said she will give me more practices in the future which means restructuring is real soon(aloysious totally leaked it out-.-) i didnt even get to take notes for the whole sermon cause eelee simply walked too much. had first pw meeting with yongcheng and jasmine ng at 6.30. yongcheng is a joker who dont know how to go to centrepoint. we were quite efficient i think?haha. at least we are rather clear about where we are heading now:)) treated myself to haagen daaz melon after that which left me with 10 cents i my wallet. but so what! as long as im HAPPY:DD sent jasmine to take cab and took mrt with yongcheng after which.
in the talk with ego leong later that nite made me realise why do i prefer ice cream to choc.

reason: choc is warm and only exist in solid state which makes ur throat very dry. ice cream is cold and it exist in solid then liquid state. the transition of states takes place in ur mouth which is a really OMG feeling. and because it melts and becomes liquid it doesnt make ur throat that dry in comparison with choc.
I SEE MY HIDDEN POTENTIAL TO BE A DEBATOR/LAWYER.

i think i need to leave aside more time for God. i need Him to talk to me and affirm me about what i m thinking of. in order for this to happen , firstly i have to pray more and read bible more regularly. reading WOG is a way that God can speak to us. everytime i want God to tell me something, i always believe that closing ur eyes and anyhow flip to a page is the best idea. AND im sure i didnt stumble upon that page by chance, ITS IN HIS PLAN! and i tell you! it really works!hahha. and i love listening to praise and worship while doing quiet time. i know it is not like quiet time anymore but it just makes me able to learn His word in a happier mood. i think in times of emo-ing and sad-ding i really need to practise turning to Him immediately too. i must make it a habit. i love God for being there for me all the time. but i always took Him for granted and turn to Him at only desperate moments. and there are many times i lose hope is because i realise i didnt put my faith in Him and trust my hope to Him, believing that He will make my hope comes true as long as i have done my part. this is bad. from now on, any desire i have, i shall pray and tell it to my Dad! i will read His word for advise and have faith He will make it come true!AMEN!

because as a God's child, we will never feel lost and hopeless.

2007-04-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

dating in pretty t's dictionary: any outing with ANYONE.

>>tracee: tracee will be there for me no matter what! THATS WHAT U PROMISE OK! if u ever go back on ur Word God will punish you with body odour!
>>chan li ping: fyi, ur anger is ignited nearly everyday! VOTE FOR PEACE OK?hahah! this year's pageant is quite pretty!
>>seokh: yes i m going for choir concert! haha!nice song leh! yepp. once a ceTOOT always a ceTOOT!
>>lilin: i rarely see you lor! hmpf! always stay as the cheerful girl i first known ok! i love you!
>>eunice: yea i think it just takes time for the pre-transfer period. take care ok darling!

fri- coach jumbo dinner treat! everyone of us had our fill and it is really a blessing! there's like crabs prawns chicken fish vegetables blahblahblah! all yummy! the yummiest is the zha mantou and fishcake fried with you tiao! after eating we went around cam-whoring until tina's cam batt nearly gone flat! on the journey back to vj bus stop magaret and i were saying this is called HAPPINESS. feeling like a big fat contented kid and surrounded by people u love accompanying with lots of laughter and a carefree mind! i really hope there is more of such days coming.

sat- vjtt owned sengkang cc tt competition!only regret is not being able to play with michelle in the end cause she was called to do the official work. but anyway, vjtt got all the top 4 prizes which earned us 275 bucks! yay! i can imagine the amount of food we are gonna get for our june bbq~ haha. cool right! earning for what we want really feels different. and i bet all the food will taste like abalone sharkfin high class durian and chilli crab that night.went service then went to have a sumptious dinner again with junde's family! CRAB CRAB CRAB LOVE LOVE LOVE! junde commented that i eat like a guy. but!its not paiseh! i should be proud of my gift of eating! hahaha!ego leong should just prepare to treat me to icekimo!

sunday morning i felt really sinful after eating so much. i shit a lot! haha! but its like good feeling shitting! like not those kind will make ur ass pain or tummyache one la.hope u all get it.haha
went studying and join jon jiexun fung fong after sometime! bought a new phone! z310i! its super lousy super DUPER LOUSY.BUTTTTTTT!ITS PRETTY! pink oh pink! thnk you clarice for the offer!

today went out studying with james and huimin at changi airport macs which got me super stressed. the more i do the more confused i got the more sad and stressed i am. they left earlier and i decided to stay longer to do somemore work. james saw me so stressed so he got me mcflurry! thank you darling! then i ranted to liping and prayed to God. felt better after that. before that i was like on the verge of crying alr. God i need wisdom and strength. today is like the first time after getting into vj i felt so weak cause of schoolwork. maybe i wasnt turning to Him much these few days when i m already feeling a bit stressed. i ask for Your forgiveness Lord. i need Your strength to guide and help me thru just 2 more weeks of intense studying before i get on the same pace as others. Without You, i may just crumble and i will never make it thru. Let me turn to you more and i will not be afraid of anything.

i love all kinds of Love songs now. but it must be happy ending kind like liang zhi lian ren! really addicted to it! God's my boyfriend!

i hope one day i can just lie on a green field or soft sand with wind gently brushing past my cheeks and sun shining softly on my forehead. i need time for self-relaxation but i need a true companionship. everytime when i thought of secrets or most wanted companionship, ELAINE this name never failed to be the first to come to my mind. i love her and i miss her dearly. She is the first to know about my secret all the time in sec 4. she kept my secrets well and never judge me. she knew pretty t WAS weak inside out last time when i do not have God in my life. she always know the best way to comfort her and wipe away her tears and stop her from crying. She is just like a God-sent big sister of mine. She will guide me and help me in lots of situations. i miss you elaine. i hope u read this. at this moment now, i really wished you are just in ur house waiting for me to pop in and cry like never before. cause u will always cheer me up in a way or another. even ice cream cant have the power like urs.

2007-04-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

had my first cg yesterday and i must say i really cant get use to it. the way cg was held was not much diff. but the way ppl communicate, style of humour and all are different. i need time and i should give them and myself a chance too. thats what tracy told me. but but i really cant find that much reason to go for cg till so late. today i manage to stay out so late and had dinner with liping cause i told my mum i got sec sch gathering dinner. yesterday i couldnt even crap up any reason so i was scolded. haii. i really dunno what to do. the travelling time is a big problem too.

nevertheless, the cg still comprises quite a few really crazy people and i can see that they are trying hard to get me involved in cg. jialing is my new shepherd and i have told her everything about me and my past. at least to the best i could. NO PROPAGANDA OK!haha. pretty t is truthful girl!

pw grouping is out and my group has yong cheng jialing jasmine and peiqian. i must say it will be one of the funnest and most hardworking group. at least thats what i think it will be. luckily theres one north person in my group, but the sad thing is that cause yongcheng is the only guy and we cant really to go his house for pw meeting all the time. imagine his mum asking "how come u bring 4 girls home everytime?!" oh my. thats rather embarrassing eh.

i hate to say this but i felt rather detached from ce2. although its like my first cg after transfer i feel weird attending ce2's cg. i still love them, or maybe even more than last time. but there is something missing. i think its because the status i m visiting the cg now is no longer a ce2-rian but a visitor. on one hand, i think i must stop keep going back to ce2 so that i will learn to be more attached to the east, but on the other hand, thinking the bare half an hour of cg i can only attend every week (which is mostly games) will not be healthy for my growth too. i will really miss ce2 if i cant even see them weekly, and it make me churning so much inside when i hear stuff like " are u still coming back after this cg" today. i know ce2 will always welcome me, and i m sure i can always talk to them well but is it really good that i stick closer to them than my cg?theoretically speaking, is it really not right to be like that?ROAR . i know i will have this visitor feeling very soon. but i dont know its that soon!

it suddenly occurred to me just now why cant God be a mother. but well, Jesus mentioned He is our Father that means He has his reasons. so pretty t has to accept it anyway despite the funny book "keeping Faith."so apparently Faith's God is a she.

i think i hve been eating too much ice cream which cause me constipation and stomachache. today had a crazy tummyache which nearly killed me, i had to go sickbay even.it did get better but still hurt a bit. well, i m still gonna eat ice cream everyday. i want to go icekimo!

2007-04-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

>>janica: YEA MAN! we have been thru so much in 2 days!amazing!VJTT will strive for the best for watever our goal our team has. because we are ONE HEART now:)
>>eunice: wait for me to upload ok!lurbbe u dip dip!
>>seokh: i m glad syf is finally coming and ce2 choir members' torture is gonna end! i miss you so so much my darling and i have got lots to catch up with you! lets wait till ur syf ends and pretty t catch up with her work and we can go out tgd THREESOME!:D
>>brother bear: i will miss you so so much too! yes i will be cause God's always with me!
>>jx: EH!what give you the tiao2 jian4 to be traumatized lor!HAHA! If one day i found a guy who can raise my 7 kids and so goodbye to you!HAHAH!

hello. sat ce2 had a farewell affirmation for me. i m really touched by what everyone says, especially liping and tracy.cause afterall they are the ones who watched me since i converted and know sth more of me than others. kelly the joker actually mentioned all my shameful past!HAHA.really embarrassing but sadness is more overwhelming at that moment. there are some other funny moments too when kenneth said," I AFFIRM YOU" and jiexun said," i m TRAUMATISED"ROAR!then suddenly ego leong cheong over and pass me a tub of fossil fuel B and J, quite a lovely surprise but "you are crying already ar" is so redundant.HAHA.nevertheless, CE2 PLUS EGO LEONG! I LURBBE YOU ALL DIP DIP LA!

after that nice moustache guy mr yong cheng treat me to mcflurry! well, it was supposed to be a swensens ice cream treat, but while i was waiting for him i read some of the letters ce2 wrote for me and i felt so touched! and at that moment i become xin1 ruan3 so i decided to degrade my ice cream treat to mc flurry.PLEASE SAY PRETTY T IS SO SUPER NICE. talked while ego leong's B and J melts.HAHA

sunday dated CHAN LIPING out to study. was deciding where to go--brown/green and white. we chose green and white in the end since its open. studied for sometime and but talked most of the time away. was urging her to carry out my evil plan against this guy she hated.BUT who will be the sacrifice item?HAHA. went bishan and ate at sakae sushi! nice nice raw salmon! spent quite a lot but i felt like a satisfied fat kid. sent her off and met up with tracy. saw tamar's bf! met up with jx and jon after that and we got a surprise bdae mini celebration for kelly! i m sure she was VERY SHOCKED AND TOUCHED!luckily linghuan was there to help bluff kelly to come down, if not liping would have revealed the surprise la!HAHA.lousy shepherd.OH YEA!four of us actually went to take neos after that!it was funny shit.hope tracy will upload it up ce2 blog for everyone to see!HAHAHHAHAHAHA.EVIL LAUGHS.

i m sure the transfer is in His great plan. i may be resenting it now and feeling emo and all. but i m sure very soon i will know His purpose for this. God has put me into a new environment for greater challenges and tifen is ready to take it up. though i still dont know who is my new shepherd and raphael didnt rly press me to transfer, but i promised him that i need 3 wks and time's up. the longer i stay, the more bu she de i will get. If i m God's devoted follower, i should listen to my great shepherd as He knows whats the best for me. Thank you shepherd for all You've done for me. take the front seat while i follow You.

there's a lot of things in me i dont really know how to put it in words which worsens my emo-ness. i really need to suffocate my deep inner emotions now. its not the right time,definitely not in His plan. Maybe i can sense that He's putting me to another challenge, but can i take it? I dont want to let myself fall into this shit too. maybe i should just erase my memory and nothing lovely will be remembered.

2007-04-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

>>fungg: i am sure u will have a lot of fun if u were there! but its ok! we see ur filial piety:)
>>tracee: talk to you this coming thurs! HAHA. yes!u all kick me out lor:(
>>seokh: i miss you too! but i will be seeing u tomorrow!
>>suchen: haha!u are talking to urself on MY BLOG! but yes! i love vjtt too!
>>fongy: haha! but being a filial granddaughter is more impt isnt it? we can have an outing soon again! and i will be seeing you tomorrow already!:D

hello ppl. there are so much stuff i want to talk about. its been a physically and REALLY mentally draining week. but well, good stuff happened too.
1. VJTT had comps against ny and hc. we lost WITH PRIDE.
2. my eyecandy sat beside me!
3. VJTT became more bonded!
4. going for thailand trip with geraldine and regina!
5. my ct complained to peter that i pon lessons and i m angry!
6. so stress that red spots pop up on my face.

YES.vjtt lost to ny and hc. but its not the end. we will make a comback next year! i guess we lost to ny cause of weak mental strength and were unprepared to fight such a hard match. a little complacency got the better of us too i guess. BUT the next day's match with hc is a really NO REGRET MATCH. we fought hard. we cheered hard. we played our best. we showed our opponents and everyone there that vjtt HAVE GOT THE TEAM SPIRIT. we are bonded togther, hearts binded together. at least, we swore we are walking towards a common goal together HAND IN HAND. though we failed to reach our goal, but the process i believe is more important. in a short 2 days time, vjtt experienced so much. tears of sadness. tears of joy. morale low. morale high. now i think of it, there's actually an invisible that we achieved---A STRONGER MORE BONDED VJTT. united we stand, vjtt will reign till the end.
i love you all.

my mum agreed to let me go thailand trip. so me regina and geraldine will be going together! i shall bring my bible in case fear due to the numerous ghost stories stir up in me. hope we get to sleep in the same room in the dorm!

tomorrow is the last day with ce2 and obviously i m sad. had night talk with liping and i've got so much stuff to tell her! shall say the rest thru the letter i m gonna give her. 3 months full of joyous memories pretty t will always remember in mind. ppl pls actively participate in photo taking with me tmr ok!haha!

wed someone pranked call me and said really nasty stuff. however, i strongly believe it isnt someone i know, at least thats what i guess.

nice jialing and james came down to support me on wed!and also to see me crying and screaming though. it was quite paiseh cause i just know who is jialing tat day when we had prayer meet in the morning!HAHAHAH

oh yea. i promised to blog about what happened at kenny rogers with vjtt today! some of us had lunch there and we spent hours talking in the restaurant! after sometime pamela was hungry again so she went to buy a muffin and she came back complaining about the ppl asking for 5 cents and should just charge her a dollar. then pretty was tempted when she saw pamela eating it so she decided she should get one too! she prepared 2.05 and was shocked when the person put the muffin on the plate and say "FASTER TAKE AND GO! GO GO!"haha! so pretty t got the muffin free!:D

2007-04-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

HELLO!I M HERE TO REPLY TAGS! please say that i m nice people!:D
>>yuqin:HOHO. I LINKED YOU LOUSY CAPTAIN!
>>suchen: SEE WHAT I MEAN BY LOUSY CAPTAIN WHO BULLY JUNIORS!
>>jx: you go die!haha! we are the cutest shepherd and sheep on earth kaes! not like you and robert lo! spastic and uhhh ungentlemanly!HAHA
>>josephine: HAHA!i will stop it when i find a nicer way to greet you! will link you soon ok!
>>tracee: of course!written by ME LEH!
>>elaine: yes i received it!but its comp period now so i m really tired everyday!will instantly reply you after crucial match this week ok!
>>basement 3: yupp i will! blogger damn mean lor! block all dash-domains that time. haii.
>>leyi: hello hello!you too you too!
>>sarah: :D :D :D i love you darling! i shall be nice and love furball in place of his MEAN owner too!
>>yourschoolmate: SHANTITITITI!HAHAHAHAHA!I REALISED YOU GOT A TI IN UR NAME TOO!see u around too!yes sch sucks
>>chanliping:HAHA. CRAZY!

shall refrain from blogging anything about table tennis until comp is over cause any spy may just pass by my blog. whatsoever, WE, VJTT, MUST UNITE, MUST FIGHT, MUST CHIONG, MUST BE STEADY, MUST ALWAYS ALWAYS BE SEEN AS ONE STRONG ARMY. with our team spirit, whatever is in our way can be cleared easily, we can fight/deter anything! JIAYOU ok people! though almost all of you do not believe in God. but i must still say GOD is with us and He will be our Rock and refuge. He will give us what we deserve and pay us according to our righteousness and hardwork and blahblah. :) tifen will pray real hard for every single one of us.CE2!PRAY WITH ME TOO OK!

anyway. pretty t had a really unforgettable and fun time last sat. central outing at marina zhen fa steamboat place is a blast. everyone of us present really enjoyed ourselves to the MXM. as ce2 had lots of ppl, we had to split up and some of them had to join another table, but VERY SOON, all of us were gathered in the nearby arcade and most of us are practically on drugs/ecstasy. haha.we are SUPER HIGH. shall give credits to shaun jiexun leon who nicely treated me to play some games. leon has the lamest reason on earth
leon "we play together then if i win you you must not bully me anymore ok"
tifen "when did i ever bully you"
leon "you must ask me bio questions!"
pretty t totally laugh till her tummy hurts. leon leong the dumb dumb. i lost 2:5 in panic park and i shall be nice and ask him some questions some time then.HAHAH. we also played bishi bashi where me and yvonne were totally owning! then liping and the rest start coming in and join in the shouting and all.kenneth totally screamed like a lady kena raped when he's NOT even playing. oh yea. kenneth is a really nice gay!he exchanged his nokia 5300 with my laopok phone which dont even have a camera!:D and on the way home i actually told jx i wanna marry him at 23.HAHAH.wonder will we still be in a same cg till then. funny shit. this may be the last central outing i have. and i really really enjoyed myself to the max i could. i love ce2, truly.

2007-04-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

thank you ppl for all the tags!shall reply during the wkends:)

hello all. nice blogger finally allowed dash domains to be accessed. i nearly thought they banned my blog or something.
a lot of things have been going on but i do not really wish to brood and rant so much about it since i have grown so much stronger. brief one will do.
sch has been rather rocky for the first week and second week and pretty t cried every wkday during these 2 wks. lorna has been really nice to me and taking up all my mood swings. well, at first i thought i was a bit too sensitive too but now its confirmed this particular girl really hated
me.at first i do care but i decided to dont bother about her anymore since i know what she say is so untrue. after so much so much so much, me and basement 3 are together again. dont we sound like ku3 ming4 yuan1 yang1?haha. but i really hope we can do it well. confidence darling!

when my emotions start going on roller coaster rides these weeks i prayed and turned to Him. i must say, pretty t is really in awe of her faith in the Lord this time. i have grown:) also, i wrote down all my random thoughts in this pink cute book. there are so much secrets in me now, maybe because i penned them all down. if i didnt, i think i might just forget all my secrets. haha.

gonna be kicked out of ce2 by raphael soon which is very sad. i really do not wish to transfer since i hate my school so much now. ce2 will always be remembered.and ce2!pls remember me as the demure gentle sweet pretty and sexy girl not CRAZY GIRL.

i love seline and i managed to talk to her that 2 days. i feel really good to have her around. its not like she's fat and making me feel protected but its the attitude and strong character she possessed made me feel so happy and worry-less when i am with her. not to mention, she's the longest lasting friend i had.(considering we still catch up with each other every now and then though we are separated and being in the same sch,knowing each other for 7 years)

night talk with liping this sat and we are gonna talk our hearts out.

Y-HOPE SHEPHERD APPRECIATION

2007-03-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

this blog entry is SPECIALLY dedicated to my ever faithful lao mu yang(old shepherd)!*drum rolls*....
CHEE LI PING aka CHILLI PING!
tan ti fen has been chee li ping's sheep for 1 yr plus plus plus!tifen must admit that having me as her sheep is never easy..*reminiscing the times shepherd got tortured*HAHA.i m sure upon looking at the difference of our sizes, you all will understand why the torture is INEVITABLE!haha. but well, we have come this far together (BOTH AS STRONG AND HEALTHY)and i'm sure she and i will never forget about the crazy times we shared.

God didnt choose us to be sheep and shepherd through random lucky draw, but i truly believes He arrange it and it was all in His great plan. tifen has never been a devoted christian for her first 2 yrs plus of her spiritual life(which is most of her spiritual life so far:p) but liping has NEVER given up hope on her. Tifen still remembers the times how she cracked her head to think of a god excuse to pon CG and service and spent time with a bad guy and my bunch of jiemei. tifen knows liping must be discouraged after countless times of rejection. BUT thank God liping has never forsake me. liping knew long ago tifen was lying to her and all, but my dearest shepherd still tried her best to guide her back to our Father. At the same time when i was cracking my head to find excuses to pon service, liping was cracking her head to think of ways to bring me back to God. During that rebellious period of mine, liping smses and encourgement cards and letters never stop flooding into my handphone and classroom. I EVEN GOT THANKED FOR COMING TO CAREGROUP! it is weird but tifen knew liping is really happy to know that tifen has never TOTALLY backslided. This year, tifen encountered a big problem which she believes God has purposely put in her life to attract her attention(God the attention seeker!haha!). Tifen at that time still didnt turn to liping for help. Until this guy friend of hers by the name of mr ong told her "YOU SHOULD TALK TO YOUR PASTOR OR ANY CHURCH FRIEND OF YOURS. THEY WILL BE ABLE TO HELP YOU. " mr ong is the one tifen confided her problem in and he had never stop encouraging her with God's words. When mr ong told tifen that, tifen was still doubtful. This shows her little faith in God. But still, she decided to talk to my grand-shepherd MS tracee, pastoral leader MR daniel cheah and of course MY DEAREST MOST BELOVED SHEPEHRD MS LIPING. This is the FIRST TIME tifen opened up to liping and TIFEN'S LIFE WAS CHANGED FROM THEN ON. A new Tifen emerged with faithful liping standing by her all the time. Tifen is able to open up her life to liping now and confide in her regarding any single problem in her life. Our relationship is not one between sheep and shepherd, but a special FRIENDship with God in the centre.

Although i m always seen bullying her, commanding her around to help me do this and that but deep in my heart, i m really really thankful for her and love her so. Just that tifen do not really know how to express her love for her shepherd and liping is not the touchy kind. If i were to suddenly hug her from behind one day i guess she will get hysterical and run around meridien foodcourt.If she had given up hope on me since a yr ago, I would not be in this church anymore but continue to indulge in the worldly stuff, just like a normal teenager who gets into BGR and splurging money on branded goods every saturday afternoon. Without her, i would continue to be a strayed and lost sheep of God. So now, dont u think liping is a gift from Him to tifen, a God sent?TIFEN REALLY THINK SO!

liping, i want to tell you that i m touched once and once again everytime u gave me a letter. i want to tell you that i really respect you for ur devotion and faithfulness to God. i want to tell you that i appreciates deep in my heart every single little thing you have done for me. (tifen always forces liping to send her to mrt/bus stop after service when she needs to leave first and picking her up at hc gate before cg and also a lot more other stufff every now and then!) my love for you is deeper than ~~my cleavage~~ the sea and higher than ~~the sky~~ my enthusiasm(high-ness) during service:D see how much i love you! i'm sure a lot of ppl, including me, are in awe of liping's faithfulness to the Lord. liping! you know what!because of your good example it stopped me from backsliding that time! i was so impressed by you thus i still believes in God and attends church once in a blue moon! it's true ok! i'm sure y0u have not only impacted me but a lot of other ppl too! tifen still remembers that your ambition is to PLANT A CHURCH!it will come true and tifen and God and many many ppl are sure about it! tifen loves you and i hope that u will still cotinue to be my shepherd for long long time even when we are in heaven:)

THIS IS A PHOTO LIPING REFUSE TO LET ME SHOW TO ANYONE!BUT WHY!LIPING (LEFT) IS SUPER CUTE WITH HER CUTEST SHEEP(RIGHT) ON EARTH!:D

stressed

2007-03-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

hello. stress is at my door now.
i prayed that stress will come looking for me and it is real fast. had the first math lecture today and i was feeling so demoralised after that. it got me all whiney again. in cjc, i can dont listen in lectures and all. but when i flip thru the notes, i can start doing alr.BUT WE HAD REVISION ONLY LEH!and i totally cant do anth.TIFEN!GG!:(:(:( i'm gonna have 5 makeup math lectures after hols.good luck tiffy.
oh anyway. i'm in 07s36.there are 5 prcs in my class and i'm the only singaporean who take the same combi as the few other prcs- B C M C.there are 19 ppl in the chinese class and only 3 are locals. but the prcs are really funny ppl la. most of them came to singapore for more than 5 yrs so they are rather singaporean-y alr.my class got 17 girls and 6 guys!so far i have been talking more with lorna and geraldine only.but the ppl are nice!though rather segregated. and there are 3 ppl in my class who live in yishun!

i shall make really full of the hols man. but i shall tell u all whats my dates so far.
mon-trng. prob meet up with jo and rah.[smsing them tml]
tues- outing with 1T23 whole day
wed- trng. team sentosa outing. concert at church at nite.
thurs- meeting up with my darling mad!
fri- trng full day
sat- church:)
sun- borders!
how much time have i got left to read up my lecture notes?NEARLY ZERO.HAHAHAHAH.i think i shouldnt stress myself so much since i attended all lectures and tutorials in cj.but bio is horrible la.

on a lighter note, me and lilin played very well today!YAY-NESS~she really gave me a black face which she claimed to be her normal competition face and it freaks me out. so i keep telling myself to play properly and not make her angyr.BUT SHE'S NOT ANGRY AT ALL!haha. we must really have more mo4 qi4 no matter what.need time but we must try our best!
had team dinner after that at suntec subway. didnt eat cause i suddenly had the craving for the hor fun at my house downstairs again. but didnt bother to go and da bao home after i m on 811. too lazy and tired la.i love team dinners cause it allows me to bond more with my team members!although a lot of J1s are not here today but i got to know the seniors better too!nice jacinda offered to take more mrt stops to accompany me and my big box of books+notes. tifen is shagged but she is really enjoying her life now. :)

OH.it has been countless times i went my sch alr right?I STILL PRESSED THE BELL AT THE WRONG STOP TODAY.laugh for all you want la. tiffy is laughing at herself too. i cant believe it man.HAHAHAHAHA.

2007-03-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

elaine pls pls faster reply me:(

hi all. i am blogging now in hope that it can make me feel drowsy.
monday-- last day with one tee two three! had last minute reservation and a whole bunch of us,19 to be exact,headed down to mind cafe at boat quay. i realised i really really miss boat quay so so much. when my lovely elaine comes back, i'm gonna make sure that one day she promised to set it aside for me will include a long talk at boat quay with nice cold white chocolate dream from coffee bean in our hands.(plus lots of tissue so as to prevent sudden rising water level of singapore river).i hope boat quay misses me too. the girl who will head down there when feeling emo. ok. anyway, i guess everyone really had lots of fun. which tifen really did. we are totally treating the place like as if kai an's dad owns it.haha.but i'm glad we didnt receive any complaints and summore the ppl there do not mind at all!we played lots of games and the frequency is on high. screamings and shoutings. BING BANG BONG. i shouldnt say things like "let's remain in contact k" and "i really misses all of you" kind of stuff. cause i believe those words are just verbal comforts.one thing for sure, i will try my best to be in cnotact with my darling mad. i'm so glad that she live half an hour bus ride from me which includes bus waiting time and walking into her hse and stuff which i think it's God's plan as because of this both of us can spend so much time together. every moment with mad is worry-free. :) to the others, i'm happy at least we once shared a similar past.cause i must admit all of you are really great ppl. no matter where are u all going, all the best and there'll be a day, we will see each other again. be it on orchard, on random streets, or on gatherings, the similar past we shared is still heartwarming to reminiscence together once again right? so let's keep the photos we have taken and really try our best to rmb each other faces. we may just see each other again whenever, wherever. thank you 1T23 again for the fun and laughter and joy you all have brought to me in my cjc stay:)

tues-- see previous post

wed--first day of sch.i was so panicky. really pacnicky. anyone who saw me will totally guessed that i m a second intaker. i reached sch at 7.15 which is super early.[actually not so. but ping pong ppl all reach so late!] and i started calling tina and lilin, pestering them to be faster. anyway. the whole morning administrative procedures were not very smooth-sailing. was getting so flustered and whiney.REALLY WHINEY.sorry josephine who have to bear up with all my stamping in circles and whining with a spastic smile.haha. w/o you i could have died in the hall. joined lilin's og. o2's really boring BORING.so many ppl ponned that the number of students is less than the number of ogl. seriously LIKE HUH?! but i decided to be nice and stayed for the whole thing. but couldnt really get enthu cause my ribcage area is still hurting like shit.[it's much better today] so during mass dance i couldnt really get into the mood also.hai. my poor partner.

thurs-- do not wish to talk much about sch. but anyway. the main point is i got into the wrong class due to wrong combi. so mr tan you hui helped me change my combi and i got into my new class AFTER they had their Ct bonding session.very question mark. but never mind. but the main thing is they push all the blame to me which i do not think is my fault to begin with and i was forced to apologise to the tchrs. bleargh.but now i got back my darling combi i shall be glad and work hard.HOMEWORK PLS COME AND TRY UR BEST TO MAKE ME STRESS.we had split caregroups today![ girls and guys] i really think all girls cg is so much more fruitful than mix cg. the girls had such a fun time together and we are much more open in our sharing which i think is MARVELLOUS!i hope there will be more of such cg in the future:) but i must admit i was a bit dazed in cg today.i wasnt focus at all, was getting slpy and hungry and my mind just stop working for quite a few moments.then when i start to be focus for some moments i got so super enthu.haha.also , i do not have my bible and notebook with me which made me feel kind of insecure in a way. i must really remember to bring it the next time and start getting use to my new lifestyle.God, pls pls pls i need to rely on You. tifen asks for Your protection and strength. do not let tifen lose her focus on You. tifen prays that she can really get more energized soon. IN THE DAY, NOT NIGHT.

seeing airplanes, airplanes taking off, taking 3 buses, passing by changi airport, seeing east coast park everyday is not that fun anymore.tifen is really shag and not spending enough time with God daily anymore. she really hopes she wont lose her focus on Him. at these times, Him is the most vital in her life. and it can evidently prove and show how much of her life tifen has committed to God. strength oh strength.

2007-03-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

tifen is sick today):
east west east today by cab. head pain. limbs pain. now heart more pain.
really hope i will be well by tomorrow morning cause i dont want to miss out my orientation at all.pray for me!

past week is the most fruitful week!
went night swimming with seline.
had steamboat bbq with leyi and seline.
went for cg and service.
attended all trainings.
celebrated jo's birthday! with jas and rah.
finally heard from lixuan!
talked to and saw lots of ppl at hc talentime.peirong love!

able to catch up with darlings is always more than a happy thing.seeing that they are happy with their life makes me happy too.mejorah my second love(after big big Daddy)will be forever.bestest friends on earth.bestest angels trio in heaven:) i'm glad our love for each other is not only proclaimed verbally. but also through actions! we will always remember each other on all occasions and never miss out any one of us on great stuff!my nytt lovies too!the steamboat dinner at marina bay made us realise how much we've missed out on each other's lives. laughing crazily together like last time isn't what we can enjoy anytime now. thus everytime when we got a gathering opportunity lets really treasure it.nytt weaved most of my nygh memories; sad and beautiful ones. i will always rmb how we train 7 days a wk together during competition period. i will always rmb us happily having meals together at tpy jian dao jian house.i will always rmb on the night before the last day of semi finals 2006 we mass cried at tpy kfc and talked till late night at our shang xin di.because its God's plan that we are able to be teammates for the 4 yrs. or rather, nytt is a God's gift for all of us=)

JAE postings are out.some are sad and disappointed. some are frustrated.some are happy.but i really feel quite bad to be putting ac as one of my choice and i got in.like taking up a place and make others who really wanted to go there lose out when i long ago knew which jc i will be going to and that a lot of ppl will be choosing ac.hai. its too late to say all these now, tifen will pray for those who are appealing to ac and other schs too. hope that all of your appeals will be successful!even if they arent, do not be sad. cause i'm sure it's God's plan and God must haveHis reason for doing so.nothing will be bad when u learn to rely on Him and commit everything to Him!

selections was so much better on monday after i prayed to God. thank God for blessing me with non-shaky hands! i guess i m quite confirmed to be one of the main team players alr:)
next up,i want to pray to God that i will be able to mix well with my classmates asap.case i heard that the sch is not rly second intake friendly and cause most of them had known each other since first 3 months they will most prob be sticking together.God, i pray that everything will be fine tomorrow and that they will open their hearts and let me be involved very soon, the best is tomorrow!:P God, i also pray that i will be all well by tomorrow morning. let all the pains in my tummy and ribcage and head be gone overnight. cause i want to meet my new friends with smiley face not sad and sick face! Lord, i pray that u will let me adapt to the new routine soon. waking up early and all. bless me with more strength and energy. Lord, i dont want to fall sick:( it's not fun!training will prob be getting more intense very soon since competition is nearing. i want to be a healthy enthu kid! cause i have YOU in me:)

2007-02-25T19:10:00.000+08:00

i realised i m such a PIG.in my last post, i totally forgot to mention abt valentine's day. YES.hahaha.THANK YOU PEOPLE!THOSE WHO SENT ME SMSES AND GIVE ME CHOCS FLOWERS ETC.THANK YOU!i gobbled everything up forgetting to take pics of them.HAHA.

okaye. shall continue from ecp outing.
central jc cgs went ecp to stay overnight together!though not many stayed. we still had quite a fun time together!:) tife only slept 2 hrs which is rly NOT BAD okaye! haha. compared to other overnight events with cg/church this is like the best of all!rented bicycle overnight and went night cycling with liping and linton! and tis experience taught me and liping NEVER EVER cycle with linton agn. YES.cause linton's slowest speed is like liping's fastest speed, liping's was totally shagged after the cycling. AND SHE FELL DOWN!my poor shepherd.but tifen was equally poor thing too.WAS FREAKED OUT by the linton's nonsense and i got so paranoid.:|then we played board games and all!taboo is like the HOT game of the night.had a nice heart2heart talk with liping and received lots of encouragement.:)

chinese new year! my parents gave me BIG BIG ANGBAOS!:)200 from mama and 310 from papa! in total, tifen received 747 BUCKS!there should be much more but tifen has been quite down in her luck so yeaaaa.haha. that also explains the weird 7 bucks there.2 of my cousins quitted smoking! YES YES YES!i m so happy~ they look so much healthier and prettier nw:)OH. i realised my paternal side relatives are all so OPEN.tifen compared to them is like so conservative pls.
example: all cousins(guys and girls) gathered in ahma room to play blackjack. so they started talking about colour of their undies. and some, GOT PHYSICAL.hahahahaha. the female cousins start showing their undies and all. cause they believe if u let others see ur undies they will get bad luck, especially if the colour of ur undies are RED. and just nice all female cousins wear dress. so the whole room of females start flapping their dresses high and hiding money under their dress.IN FRONT OF THE MALE COUSINS.zai not zai not.HAHA

sch was boring as usual.our class got nearly full attendance everyday which was great. i pass my math quiz. i didnt do any compo.tifen IS NOT YET DEAD MIND YOU.hahaha!

missed out cg cause got training. but i can go from next wk onwards!heard they took cg madness photo!booboo!but tracy took a pic of me on sat.SHE BETTER PUT MY FACE AS THE BORDER!IDONT CARE!HAHAHAHA

fri went for dinner tgd with carmen tina and lilin. played reALLY bad for selctions!though i won but it's lousy winning!when will i ever stop being scared of competitions man. PRAY FOR ME!I WILL PRAY HARD TOO.i'm sure God will bless me with unshaky hands tml for the second round of selections.PLS DO! anyway, we had dinner at BK. and i realised the fight between Vivian and Hairy is baddd.nats will be round the corner which means i must face my fears soon. i know the tension will be very bad. but but but I M NOT PREPARED FOR IT!seline chan!it's totally not like you scared of ur fish can.HAHAH.i know its a good example there but its not the case! i know i shouldnt be bothered abt what those ppl think and all but its still scary and hurtful.

brought mad to church on sat!i m so happy she stayed to fellowship with us too!hope she learnt quite a bit of things:) went shopping around with her and it's great!we had fun walking and laughing like MAD.cause mad is mad. bought some stuff while mad's wallet is zipped tight all the while.HAHA.I HATE CHINGAY!hate it hate it.the streets are like so packed and it's so hardfor you to get to the other side of the road to shop! but i like it in a way cause shopping centres are really empty.HAHA.

had two dance lessons this wk and it was fun with sarah! i really really sincerely hope me.jo.rah will stay as good friends forever. I AM SURE WE CAN!we can all lay bra-less on jo's room floor, drink from bottles of absolute vodka and start pranking ppl and laughing out loud. talked about our sad stuff and comfort each other.WE WILL BE THE GREATEST CRANKY TRIO:)

God, i really pray that You will give me strength. strength to deter Satan's temptations, Satan's evil words. give me strength so i wont be hurt by the judgeful eyes of the world. because You, the holy and perfect one, my Father,do not even judge, the other sinners in this world should not have the right to too.I want to be unaffected by them.TOTALLY UNAFFECTED.because if i am, it will divert me away from You. that means what they say is more impt then what You say which shouldnt be the way.Lord, give me the strength. Lord, i also pray that i will be more dependent on You. Let me believe MORE AND MORE in the great power of You. i would have no doubts from now on, never ever.Lord, You should be the focus of my life. I want to commit my all into your hands, be the driver of my life Lord. guide me so i wont stray. guide me to be more like You.
Lord, this is my prayer. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.

2007-02-16T08:12:00.000+08:00

hello!
this wk is a hectic wk. i m feeling so shagged everyday. dreading sch sooooo much.

mon- after sch went to little india with mad and xiaoxi! mission- get my legs waxed and eyebrow threaded. mad brought me to rupini first and it was so crowded. so i went back to my usual place. my legs are so sexy and smooth now eh! haha!MAD DONT DROOL.supposed to meet up with sis and shop at bugis but received a call from carmen and i had to cancel the date.SORRY CLARICE!

tues-ended sch at 5 and seline nicely accompanied me to meet mr wee. HAHA.seline was feeling so uncool cause i stopped her from visiting cj.shall make an attempt to crash rj some time soon:Dwas so tired when i reached home so just bathed and slept. woke up at 4 to study bio and did not manage to make any valentine's gift.sorry oneteetwothree! shall give u all the chocs when sch reopends.PROMISE!

wed- went for blood donation! haha.JO!I RLY SAW THE YAKULT STRAW NEEDLE. but it wasnt pain when they poke it in luh.the thin needle injection then pain .was so scared when the nurse was preparing for the injection. i was like squishing my face and grabbing the heart(stress ball in heart shape) so tight. and the nice nurse gave me two hearts!i was squeezing them so tightly one on each hand.HAHA.went training then meet sarah for dance lesson!sorry sarah!i realised i was always the late one:P dance instructor was feroze this time and he is cranky. he made us to cheesy moves which made sarah and me laugh like nuts. went to lau pa sat to have my dinner and we talked till 9.30 then left!

thurs- after sch went to play frisbee with josie mad and felicia. i think eugene tan is so crazy over frisbee for some reason. left at 3 with mad to KAP. talk and LAUGH till 4plus then off we go! went for hc caregroup while mad went to meet her sis at ikea. caregroup was fun! we had fake yu sheng but it was nice. learnt a bit of ares dance which i totally forgot by now. saw my darling shanru!!!!!shanru really grew much prettier. i m rly alright now darling! let's meet up when we got the time!SOOOOON!was waiting for my bus for half an hour but it still refused to come. saw denise chen at bus stop and she kindly offered to give me a lift to macritchie.went nearby coffeeshop to buy my dinner and saw a ge1 tai2 set up to raise funds? but the singer dressed so GROSSSSSLY!all the tikopeks must be drooling.

fri- fun day ahead! hope tonight's stayover at ECP would be fun!TIFFY!NO SLEEPING!

i think now that i m able to open up everything of my life to my shepherd and leaders is rly like lifting a huge burden off my shoulder and i have never felt helpless or lost since. i always know that they are there to listen to my rants and all. they will give suggestions on what i should do. cause they know God's words better than me, they can always guide me using the WOG and i will not be strayed.i learnt to depend on God so much more now.
caregroup is one of the group of friends in my life whom i feel that is so impt and ever fun to mix with. i am never close to my caregroup back in ny. not that i m close to ce2 now, but compared to the times in ny, it's rly much better. in ny, i always dread going for caregroup. during breaks, i am always copying hw or want to spend time with my classmates then i dont want to go for caregroups. after sch, i will either have trainings or choose to go out with him and again give excuses to pon caregroups. i think it's a big reason why i wasnt felt that close to God then. my spiritual strength was so low. but now, i really lrealised the importance of caregroups in your spiritual walk, it's the bunch of ppl who will make you feel closer to Him in your everyday lives. they are the bunch of faithful ppl who will let you rly feel blessed.thank God.

2007-02-10T06:36:00.000+08:00

hello. tifen WAS a lost and depressed kid. but NOW am found.(:

any o lvl track ny girl who didnt cry after receiving results pls raise ur hand.

wasnt nervous at all until one hr before taking back of results?affirmation and praying with classmates for the FIRST TIME.

DREAM COMES TRUE. i think God wanted me to be prepared for this results but i dont want to accept it:( mrs chitra and ms lily chua came over to hug me after seeing me cry.two big thank you go out for both of them. i must say mrs chitra and i were both happy enough for my eng results and my comb humans is a miracle (jumped oh-am-gee 5 grades luh).but when u add them all up tgd is shitty.
BUT I KNOW! God always have the best plan for me! thinking of this, i stopped crying. my crying is like short-lived and dramatic.HAHA.next dream coming up: God telling me which jc to go.

I GOT C6 FOR C LIT! yes it will totally look ugly on the cert.HAHA. but considering i didnt do 30 marks and i passed is like bom-bi-bi

rantings aside, i must congrats the rest who did rly well. MUST JIAYOU FOR A LEVELS AGAIN!namely sarah lixuan xiaoxi seline:)

creepy thing. me and leyi got same results again.AGAIN. sec one and sec 2, our overall % has always been the same or only 0.123 diff. sec 3 we chose very different subs but our L1R5 has been the same all the way till prelims. and Olvl IS STILL THE SAME.hahaha.leyi! i know u aint happy at all with ur results. but rmb God always have the BEST PLANS TO PROSPER YOU, not to harm you! [jeremiah 29:11] yes. i received at least 3 smses telling me abt this.haha. ty ppl:)

went some tea party cafe after results taking with rah and jo. we chatted and all or hours. jo is still sad.summore those crazy friends of hers keep calling and ask her how she done. i mean mine too la. but her friends are freaking smart. 1T23 and my ig ppl scored around the same points as me!took crazy photos in their toilet and around the cafe. lying around their comfy sofa and whine and have crazy ideas of going to poly/ite. haha. but its rly a nice place to slack around! cause there's practically NO ONE.

met up with daniel and liping. rly got lots of encouragement. thank God. I DIDNT HAVE NIGHTMARES LAST NIGHT:) first time since last fri. rly. God, it's enough. having a good night rest is my BIGGEST blessing for this wk:)

pictures will be uploaded soon. tea party cafe pics pls see www.misdirection-.blogspot.com

2007-02-06T21:42:00.000+08:00

dear ce2,
few months back, i still rmb when i heard that i have to follow liping to join hc grp i was like NONONONO! rebelling so loudly inside my heart but now, ce2 had become an impt part of my life.
maybe you all didnt know how i rly mean it when i say that all of you are one of the biggest God's blessings.but truly, all of you are. maybe you all thought that i was always the hyper and excited one during cg and church all the time, that you all dont even need to bring joy into my life and i m alr am like that. actually, it's not true. you all are the ones who block and diminish all my sad thoughts and made me happy when i am with all of you. it's like i cant help but to smile and show that i m truly blessed.
i rly resented to join ce2 at that time cause i find it hard to change into a total new environment. moreover, you all actually came when i was in my darkest days. it's rly hard for me to adapt and all. but look! you all are actually one of the ppl who accompanied me thru, chase away my sorrows, during the sad times. all of you are God sent.
i do not know how long more can i stay with all of you. i will be rly sad, really. but whether we rly have to separate, it's all in God's plan. since God's plan has always been the best, i will keep a positive atttitude of whatever's coming ahead.i will never know, i may find myself enjoying greatly with a new cg and all. but for now, i rly want to say a big XIE XIE to every single one of you.
i think saying that i rly thank God for all of you cannot even show how much i treasure and love you all cause i've mentioned it too many times. but trust me when i say, if not for ce2, i wld not have been the stronger tifen now. maybe all of you do not know what have you all actually did or said that impacted me so much to make me say that, but sometimes you all dont have to do anth at all, just the presence of all of you, is enough.
love, tifen.

met up with tracy today and shared my problem. i feel much better after that. yes, i did cry. but having to know that someone is out there to listen to you, not looking at you with any judgeful eyes, another person to take half ur burden away, i smiled after that.

2007-02-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

hello! didnt blog for 2 wks.shall summarise like#$%$%&.am getting sleepy. wkend but no rest.soooooooooooo.HERE I ZOOOM!

first of all, GOD'S BLESSINGS:
1. I FOUND MY SPECS!(but i lost yam's specs.pls dont kill me) BUT BUT.the good thing is I CAN SEE NOW! yam's specs is 100 degrees off k!

2. spiritual buddy saltyman from 1T23!during break, his presence reminds me to say grace and when i m sad, his presence reminds me of WOG.xie xie chickadee!

3. EVER LOVABLE CE2! rly love the heartwarming atmosphere i enjoy every thurs afternoon 4.30 at a corner in hcjc.it is one of the most impt thing i look forward to every wk. ce2, my standard blessing wkly:)

4. quite over the unholy stuff.

5. healthy body! i've never thought i could endure PT like almost everyday.HAHA.and i just got cough but no way sicker than that!thank God!

6. able to love and bond better with my class! ONETEETWOTHREEE! everyone is fat-bull-lor-sore.EXCEPT FOR FLAT TOP BASTARD.at first i thought i could be nicer to him but he just got on my nerves.SO TOO BAD.

7. sleeping lesser in classs!God gave me the energy and strength to endure the torturous lectures and tutorials!

8.MONEY FOR SHOPPING!love love love:D

9. love hockey more.

yes!tifen should rly try to learn to thank God for everything in her life! she should kick the habit of seeking God when only she's sad or troubled.and even during those times she only find them when she's only rly desperate!NO !that shouldnt be the way anymore! God's blessings have been given to me in every aspect and every moment of my life recently. it's time i should rly thank God,give up everything in my life to God cause i seriously dont deserve them at all! though i cant promise that i can rly give up EVERY SINGLE THING but i should keep trying since i promised my shepherd to grow! starting everyday by listening to praise and worship songs on the way to sch reminds me of God's love and i m HIS beloved child.it is ULTIMATE joy and happiness:)

our class is getting more bonded as time passes!having meals TOGETHERLY enduring drain walks TOGETHERLY running TOGETHERLY playing basketball TOGETHERLY rly helps us to get to know each other more.ALTHOUGH AT THE SAME TIME WE LEARN TO DISLIKE FLAT TOP BASTARD MORE.but everything is fine and nice!

odac.hockey.dance audition.hockey.YES!i m in hockey now! played for 1 yr in p3 is shit. totally forgot everything!haha. at first i dont like it at all cause of the ppl!but now it is better.just that i still hate this particular guy.so ungentleman! talked quite a bit with the snrs today and found out they are actually rather friendly ppl!but i still dont like the coach luh.BLEARGH. dance audidtion is shit!i will always rmb the salsa sexaye and horny monkey.

went shopping with my sis and bought a pair of heels and a belt!

fell aslp on last wk's second service agn WHEN I M ON DUTY! tifen should seriously kick this bad habit man:(

surf and sweat on sunday and joseph! we better notbe the last.HAHAA

2007-01-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

>>jas: HAHA, YEA LOR!my ig ppl pure and innocent la!haha

>>jo: jo i miss you!yes yes! i m having fun!but ur orientation must be funner! u even lost ur voice eh.SO ENTHU!

>>fungmin: i got tired of it towards the end! but overall it was still fun! i have learnt to love my class more(:

>>jon: U HAVENT TEACH ME HOW TO TURN OFF FIREWALL INTERNET EXPLORER 7!BANG BANG! haha. thanks BABE!the joy central E2 brought in my life is one of the biggest blessing so far.rly thank God for all of u!

>>mila: MILO MILA! how've u been? i miss Central A like #%$%*! u know sonia too? just saw her agn ytd when we had og outing!

>>stella: YEA LOR!unhealthy neh! tifen will be stronger and happier!love u darling!

>>sarah: HAHA. ur brother suddenly jump into my vision and say hi! i said hi too but i said WHO ARE YOU.haha zero impression

HELLO PPL!first even week have passed!

monday.
got into our classes and i'm in 1T23! only me xiao xi and one janson guy take higher chinese in this class. 6 guys and 17 girls.HIP HIP HURRAY! did lame stuff in sch and we got house meeting! i m in aki which means autumn in jap! theres also penguino(winter) forar(spring) kyuuka(summer).aki got hokkien cheer which makes us all sound lian and beng.went to far east with xiao xi and bought a tube top!and a tube bra.HAHA

tuesday.
went ECP. had the slowest amazing race u can ever think of. first interaction with a guy in my class got brian who is also known as NIKE guy. he was jokingly commenting sth and I SLAPPED HIM. haha. we were in the middle of a game so everyone stared at us for a moment.do not wish to elaborate on it.BOOO. miss hayeena is so gonna fart into his face one day.

wednesday.
went dragon boating and played some station games at kallang. xiao xi was so freaked out by the rocking part of dragon boating.haha.relax! went back. changed. prepared for finale night. we sat in our houses and the leaders of each house will do some grand entrance which involves lots of hailing. each house present their skits then followed by their STOMP! item. all the houses did not adhere to the instructions actually. we were supposed to make stomp item props using recycled materials.but none exactly follow it. kyuuka won the best house in the end. failed allaince with penguino. had mass dance and i acted as a guy and dance with xiao xi. played a video of our orientation which i see nuts cause i got no specs with me. sch song then home.

thursday.
had introductory lectures which ends at 1 pm for me and xx. went to eat at thai noodle restaurant at bukit timah then walked to hc to meet tracy. had mini caregrp and i m the impromptu game master! made yongsheng robert and samuel do funny forfeit. 5..4..3..2..1 HAPPY NEW YEAR! mini prayer meet and off we go! me and liping went kap after that till 7 plus. told her abt everything and i felt more relieved in a way now. I LOVE CE2!and they made me realise that i laugh like MILLIONS OF HORSES NEIGHING.

friday.
went sch and dismissed at 1 again.lost my specs!): went shopping at far east AGAIN.xiao xi bought 2 tops this time while i bought a dress! went home. then rushed down to hc! met up with lixuan and stayed with her class a while. cheered a bit for athena whom i thought shouldnt deserve to win at all=X but ares was really much better! a lot of ppl pon which i thought is dumb to do so. cause even though i m not part of hc but i still enjoyed myself! maybe because its more like a get-together for me!haha. saw a lot of ppl and i looked like i went hc just to hug them. joined marilyn/kelly's class and the senior's class during dance. i managed to lie to so many ppl that i m actually in hc.HOW ZAI I AM.haha! went home at 10! after a long talk with lixuan .she's a happy girl now already! kenneth looked so cute in hci secondary uni! ARGH!!!because i think he's short? if its on yongsheng it could have looked OH AM GEE.haha!

sat.
odac 8-1.30. church 2-6.15. og gathering 6.30-9. odac orientation is crazy! mud soya sauce drainwater plus drain walk noodles face paint AND MORE MUD.cute ******!HAHA!oh my god!
chruch was bad! i couldnt concentrate at all): SORRY HUIYING!i totally fall aslp during worship WHILE I M ON DUTY!i didnt even know what song did u all sing at all when i m supopsed to be doing the recording.HAHA. tired tired! had central meeting then went off to meet stuart first! cause he was late too. we sat at pastamania when only hexiang is eating there. the rest of us just da bao subway up at eat!haha. couldnt i only ate like 3 inch of my sandwich i think. talked for quite a while then took a bus down to suntec city. gto separated for a while then met up at starbucks agn. jindao and kaiwei joined us while geoven went off.got to know a bit abt that guy and di er lao gong fill me in more! argh!!!!

sunday.
woke up feeling all itchy. i look at myself in the mirror and i saw a monkey with red spots. T.T cause i m like scratching while looking into the mirror and there is zillions of RED mosquito bite look-a-like thingy all over my back butt and tummy!now my underarms are growing too!ARGH!must be the mud of saturday!must get it cured soon if not i can never wear my tube dress and tube top!DOUBLY SAD): there are like red scratches on my limbs too. i rly looked ugly now la. went shopping with rly decent clothing. wanted to wear a spag but TOO BAD TIFEN. bought a top from zara a pair of socsk from mini toons and facial products from the face shop. ate dinner and home! if the itchies bities dont go away tml i shall go see doctor. ROAR!

2007-01-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

i want to know so much more. but i guess i have been practising rather good self control so i should keep it up.initiating any talk will just let my effort wash down the drain. night is the most horrible creation of God. SORRY MY BIG DADDY :( but when night falls, when everything is so peaceful inside out, my mind will not stop running wild. I think so much.
sometimes i want everything, confident and faith-filled.
sometimes i want everything, but thought i was being ridiculous.
sometimes i dont want anth, i m afraid i might regret.
sometimes i dont want anth, i hate myself for making this choice.
i think tifen is a good actress. she can always hide every bit of her feeling inside her so well behind her smile, small eyes and 2 dimples. but no matter how much i tried to make my day wonderful, when night falls, the desire to save everything, to give my all to revive everything still defeat the laughter and joy i enjoyed in the day and gush into my mind. YESNOYESNOYESNOYESNO. i could not make up my mind.
cause i m the one who loves you lately.

only time i can forget everything is when i stepped into the presence of God. daddy loves me and i loves him. he wants to see me happy and be like Him. but i have never stop letting Him worry abt me. instead of spending more time with Him, i spend my time having un-holy thoughts. God always put me as His first priority. but where do u place Him? ALWAYS THE LAST. i could have been the worst child He ever had.

2007-01-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

>>delfina: linked you! why u didnt say hi to me one!haha. next time u see me must waves and jumps!happy belated new yr!

>>seokh: of course i rmb u! the cute girl from river valley!happy new year and i linked you!:)

>>xt: who ask u always never come for gatherings!booooo

>>jon: ENTHU FREAK!nice to meet you too!

>>tracee: i m really glad how much joy ce2 brought into my life too!thanks!:D

>>lyn: ok!will link you!

>>eunice: HELLO EUNICE the stalker!:D how did u find my blog!:P

hello! TIFEN IS IN CJ IG 26!funfun! let me name the ppl inside first
IG 26:
1. (TIFFANY) TAN TIFEN. (the girl who is so-called the most corrupted and indecent. in an attempt to tarnish ny re[utation in cj.HAHA)
2. FIONA (the dog face. my BEST FRIEND in IG 26):D
3. JESSICA SUWANDI (pretty lady)
4. STUART HIGGS (also known as uncle higgs. with a psychologist ambition like me!)
5. JAIME (GU NIANG number 2)
6. JANELLE (GU NIANG number 1)
7. LOUIS KRISMAN (a guy who loves carrying his louis vuitton bag around.HAHA.stuart gay partner)
8. GEOVENN CHRISTOS LIM (a chin chye guy. my dance partner. talkative and enthu)
9. ALICIA LEE (only person in my grp who KNOWS hanakimi)
10. SERENELLA LIEW (ever enthu and she attempts to WEAR G ME. or wedgie?HAHA.)
11. AMANDA. ( the act decent one.owns the biggest bag in the group)
12. MARIE. (the listener)
13. RACHEL. (PRETTY(: )
14. CHRISTOPHER. (the one who is always looking so blur)
15. YUI WING (only get to know his name on the last day.HAHA.a vs table tennis player!)
16. JIN DAO. (got an admirer from ig 25 calling him yan dao 0_0 maris brother)
17. HE XIANG ( a quiet guy who rarely showed that he existed in ig 26.HAHA)
18. SONIA MAO. ( ONE OF mao ze dong eurasian descendants.HAHA.tall and always slpy!)
19. (CHARMING) ANDREW (i m the only person who calls him charming andrew though. but he rly got that charming eyes! haha. he always seems like he's diaoing me. but he's the first guy i gave a hug to during dismissal!awwww)
20. STEFANUS IAN (DO U EXIST?)
21. KAI WEI (WHAT ABOUT U?)

the last 2 names! WHO ARE YOU! OH MAN.10 guys 11 girls. but due to the constant absence of janelle during the activities. there are 10 guys and girls exact during dance. facilitators charmaine and jalene are fab!our group have got 3 eurasians and 2 indonesian born chinese.HOW COOL CAN IT BE:D

FIRST DAY.
had ice breakers games and everything is just so peaceful and quiet. cj favourite forfeit is keching. ( ballerina rockstar pornstar) witness banging of facilitators. grossssss.managed to make friends and talked quite a lot (considering second hr of start of sch) with amanda and rachel. most of the games need close contact with guys but zero reaction.HAHA. had an hour talk by brother paul. during break, the girls began chatting on the topic: WHAT DO GIRLS DO IN GIRLS SCH?. ny was so not happening.HAHA. really. like compared to other girls sch. and we got really high at a point. then we got bored of it and turned to stuart who had been eavesdropping all along and asked WHAT DO GUYS DO IN GUYS SCH? tifen who has been keeping mum all the while just pop up a sentence: THEY HAVE MASS WANKING SESSION LOR! stuart and jessica and me laughed. others? I ONLY SEE QUESTION MARKS ON THEIR FACES. and from then on, i m labelled the MOST INDECENT AND CORRUPTED GIRL.thanks ppl.haha. not forgetting. i m called weirdo too. BECAUSE TIFEN BROUGHT CRAYONS AND SKETCH BOOK, NTHING ELSE, TO SCH ON THE FIRST DAY. got rather bored cause we were dismissed relatively early. went down to sembawang intending to renew my card but i realsied i didnt bring birth cert. great. took 167 from sembawang to orchard and met up with liping! then met up with xiangyu and cathy for dinner. small scale ny alumni meeting.HAHA.oh. uncle higgs mistaken me for yixin. haha! and the crescent girls in cj now all know me! cause i look like one of the girls in crescent. oh man. do i look so common:(

SECOND DAY.
FIRST LIE OF 2007.: I M CALLED TIFFANY TAN TI FEN.sorry ig 26!HAHA.omg. i really didnt mean to lie. but some of u keep asking! so yea. tiffany then.HAHA. was so bored in the morning and i smsed sarah complaining abt the absence of eye candies. but halfway thru the say i finally found one in my ig. not rly an eye candy. but still rather good looking.HAHA.shant mention who is it in case sumone popped by out of a sudden. chose sub combi. MATHS CHINESE CHEM AND H1 BIO. but it will be counted as 4 H2 in the end. played station games and thats when me and fiona become lessie partners from then on.HAHA.sticking together till the end of fri. played more station games in the afternoon where we will get a bit wet and dirty. witnessed anal intrusion.GROSSS. played this game where guy and girl had to pair up and the games master will pick up a 2 chips from a bowl where a different colour chips represent different body parts. each couple will then have to kiap a wet spongy using the 2 body parts.paired up with uncle higgs. MOUTH to STOMACH.haha. i refused to kiss the dirty sponge ball and uncle higgs being the gentleman volunteered to! awwww.after sch went to hc to meet up with CE2 for caregroup. very fun! saw some games played by the orientation groups and i think cj was funner:P

THIRD DAY.
really dirty and wet day.mass dance. sch tour. police academy. games are police academy are tiring! one war game. then water polo. then find shoes game! supposed to be blindfolded and go into this patch of field to find ur shoes. was snatching shows with chris cause i really cant hear fiona's instructions.HAHA.someone shouted snails and i did a bit of pouncing on uncle higgs who refused to reply me what's his name when i called out. and he said that i wanted to pull down his pants when i didnt!boo you! then muddy guess word game where we nearly won and dog and bone in the water! the wading pool is like murky.ewwww.at the end of the day we hugged around and took a photo together!went to cafe werribe with xiao xi after sch and we played happy family!

SATURDAY.
replaced card. went church then trng!

2007-01-02T08:54:00.000+08:00

>>sandy: but i dont like my laughter!sounds like hyperventilation leh!next time must be more gentle and looks more glam and demure when i laugh.HAHA.*tapes mouth*

>>stella: I SO LUB DUB THAT HAIRBAND U GAVE ME!ITS RLY PRINCESSY!*blows flying kisses*

>>tracee: thank you my GRAND shepherd!:D

>>yvonne: i linked you!haha. i m definitely not a bimbo!cause i can study:D

>>jx: i m gonna sit beside more often during CG!haha!especially when we are playing some toturous and sadistic games*evil laughs*

>>fungmin: but before i know u i didnt know!haha. i always know u as the girl who keep giving me cold stares! but u rly look very dao when u dont smile.SMILE MORE PLEASE!

hello! new yr's eve was great! went ah ma hse in the morning then met up with joyce and go turf city with rest of our batch! got our bbq food and necessaties. then carmen sheila evelyn came to join us! so there were me seline joyce bert leyi eve carmen sheila eve! bbq was held at leyi house. played fun games but got funny rules and forfeit. i wad forced to shout countdown 5 sec and shout HAPPY NEW YEAR!when it was like only 10 pm?!did lots of confessions where some are really like wow. unexpected. slept at 3 plus when we are supposed to play cards.haha
morning went to meet wo de nan ren and xiao xi!watched death note 2 at the pretty grand cathay. L died!:( i hate misamisa. bought a nike shirt for 17 bucks!mum came back from malaysia and 2 more nike shirts.haha. 3nike shirts= biggest blessings for the start of the new year.

2006-12-31T09:04:00.000+08:00

hello! went for service yesterday! FINALLY ON DUTY AGAIN FOR MONTHS!HAHAHAH.
but i did make an attempt to reach earlier to learn first.now we are back to 2 vision mixers and still got a simple control thing. JIAYI SAID I DID WELL!i think clara is very pretty!haha. was too shy to tell her that. but she really dont have sec 2 kind of pretty. instead she got a sec 4 kind of pretty.and a tracker face.HAHA.oh.TRACEE WALKED ME OUT AFTER FELLOWSHIP:D realised that peiyu class actually had 6 from CE its like OH AM GEE.haha. jiayou jiayou!
new year is coming in 15 hrs! excited! only time you can really tell urself to repent and be a better person next yr.haha.cause u r just too lazy to do that all the time.new yr new beginning together or aint:)

When you said that we could make it through whatever, ever
And to me it sounded like you meant forever, ever
Leaving was not an option, baby, never, never

2006-12-30T11:21:00.000+08:00

been blog hopping around central A and E's blogs the whole morning!haha. linked them:)

although God is so ever patient, i guess i shouldnt let him wait anymore.

liping! now i know why i cant grow! because i havent tried hard enough in self-breakthrough.
breakthru before growth
commitment and faith before glory

2006-12-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

actually wanted to blog ytd but i realised what i did on tues.HAHAHAHAH.yupp.postponed to today in the end.

tues- rooted to 167 for 1 and half hrs.NEW RECORD. so i was totally late for the lunchbox concert at esplanade and poor sarah had to go alone.HAHA.when i finally found where was the concert held i saw a crowd starting to walk out and i spotted SARAH!met up with jo at raffles mrt station after that then walk to mind cafe! when we reached its just nice open.oh ppl! mind cafe opens at 2pm and pls make a reservation if u all are going at nite! during xmas eve nytt actually wanted to go there but we found out it was fully booked.yupp.lucky me sarah jo! we started playing from 2 all the way to near 7! it was cheap! oh LADIES! 6-11 PM ON TUES IS LADIES NIGHT AT MIND CAFE! FREE BOARDGAMING FOR ALL LADIES!cheap deal! and 2-6 is 5 bucks per person on wkdays! mind cafe is a really good place for gatherings:) we played a lot of different and MINDLESS games.haha! when we come to games which need to answer question or think a lot WE CHANGE.HAHA! the waitresses are FAT-BULL-LESS.they know how to play all the games and they will teach u politely and nicely! summore w/o much request they actually helped us to take lots of cnadid shots while we were playing!haha.pictures on sarah's blog!

wed- totally overslept for trng but i went anyway! me and seline gave tuition during the afternn trng. i m a more efficient tutor compared to seline k!like totally:) went to watch grand finale and most of them are just giggling throughout the mixed doubles.most OH-AM-GEE award goes out to gan wei jie!! haha!
negligible:i realised a lot of china kids are staying at wilson's hse and wilson have to slp on floor!awwww

thurs- went to give that china kid tuition again. guo jing and this 14 yr old kid.haha.imagine u have to translate kinetic energy and potential energy to chinese.dong4 de4 neng2 liang4.HAHA.wth.so i have to keep using funny examples like i jump off building and roll off a hill. can someone tell me whats photosynthesis in chinese? that poor kid seems so totally confused at my explanation.GOD.met up with CE hwachong group after that. and i realised the girl whom i thought dont like me in FUNG MIN!HAHAHAHAH.but actually she's very nice! all the ppl are nice!except that yongsheng guy i think i really gay. went to tracee hse for CG and the games are fun!haha.or maybe for me only? POOR JIEXUN!haha.sorry! maybe i really hate guys or what. but i think i m especially agressive to guys for some reason.haha.I GAVE HIM PINCH MARK:D but i left after worship and lost another chance to watch passion of Christ. i guess HC ppl are really much more friendly than i expected which is great! saw seniors at nite! haha.all of them looked so grown-up!

fri- stayed home almost the whole day. except that i went out to meet weijie for a little bit of arcade them met up with seline and may to have lunch. had sambal stingray and pineapple rice for dinner! shall drag sis out of bed at 6 tml and run. SHE SHOCKINGLY ASK ME TO BRING HER FOR A RUN TODAY.*SCREAMS*

going out with xiao xi and WO DE NAN REN for death note 2 next monday! omg!!!!i love wo de nan ren!

2006-12-25T18:19:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i blog. but so much things have happened i dont feel like saying at all.HAHA.sounds irritating eh?but its christmas.there should be breakthrus and new starts!ok.shall have a short description of hols
1) started going trng
2)went to genting from 7-9
3)first clubbing experience which makes me feel like a total slut. how abt a dozen penis banging u.
4)went sentosa with seline and leyi played at aqua park which is fun!
5)spent christmas eve night with nytt and ITS SUCCESSFUL.8 ppl turned up.tifen is zai
6)i spent 700 bucks with my card
7)got a new mp3 which i dont know how to operate properly when it have been bought for weeks
8)had a bad habit of talking to elaine frequently at night
9)went into CJ for first 3 months
10)didnt spend a day at home since beginning of hols
THE END! will try to put pics up soon!

2006-12-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

i m starting to lead a meaningless and sad life.

will be on hiatus for a month.start blogging when the new year begins.

maybe some pic blogging sometimes. so continue to visit my blog!ZAI JIAN

2006-12-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

I M REALLY BORED NOW.

and blogging is my resolution. wasnt a really good one. but i dont have any other alternatives. do i?

sat- went service then met up with rah and jas. changed into my sexy off shoulder which i m really excited to show sarah but in the end we aint going anywhere.HAHA.okaye. i think we are losers. but haiya. its better than dozing off during the performance right right? changed back into the shirt i clad in earlier on. my dad is an antique you see. cousin chong jia ping stayed over and me sis and her squeezed into my sis room and slept tgd. for some reason. my cousin keep snatching my bed wherever i roll to. LOUSY.and i found out steven is a jerk, despo.

sun- met up with sarah at raffles place and went for dance lesson together. i chop chop confirm that my legs are retarded. my upper body movements are perfectly alright but not my legs.:<. going to attend mtv lesson next wk instead. hope will be doing btr.oh ya.farah is gone and bryan is back. he is gay. but i must admit he does looks hot and sexy when he dances. went expo and met up with seline. went IT fair which is really over-crowded.squeezed arnd with seline pulling my bag in case both of us got lost. deciding whether to buy a creative/samsung mp3 but after some comparisons i finally decided to buy the samsung one(T9). anw. i think my sis was really sad abt it. she bought my purple mp3 for me and i spoilt it. i she hadnt buy that mp3 for me that time she wld have bought a nicer and better one for herself today.(she went too) i really feel bad now.HOW. visited the car/motorcycle exhibition and i still love family cars. my new ambition: to be one of those pretty babes making out with lovely cars. which means those ladies who always make sexy poses beside cars. i want it to be my part time career besides teaching. i think all my students will be so OH M GEE charmed by me. i think to fulfil this dream i must start working on it now.NOW!

2006-12-01T20:34:00.000+08:00

hi babes hi babes hi babes.

thurs- early in the morning, woke up, met up with my cousins and headed down to chinatown. asked a few travel agencies abt the packages for msia bus trips and we finally decided on the 707 travel agency package.then the person called up the legend hotel in KL and our whole plan is ruined.WE HAVE TO HAVE AN ADULT ABOVE 21 TO CHECK IN.roar!!!!!whats wrong with them seriously. so being so freaking desperate, i called my aunty in msia at a nearby tel booth and asked her to help us out. had 2 days full of discussions and settled! will be going there next wk
went down to sarah's rarely empty house after that. baked the L.A.M cake and had a long long talk agn.i love talking to sarah as i have totally no restriction. she's a good secret keeper:)

today- woke up early and getting myself mentally prepared for my HOLY MOLEY JOB.took bus 85 then 62 down to elaine's mum clinic.waited for a while and her mum is FINALLY ready to do the job.had elaine's hand and squashy ducky and humpty dumpty to relieve the pain. sounds like a woman in labour?NOT.hahah! acc to elaine, the machine burns off my flesh and her mum scrape it off?SO I GOT A DENT ON MY CHEEK NOW.!haha. sounds kind of disgusting but its all worth it! prettier tifen now! no more mamasan from brothel:) headed down to pasir ris park after that. rented bcicyle and off we went taking pics and all with my bikini!
went back yishun cause elaine's mum called and due to no nice movies, i decided to go jo's house! overslept to daddy's house there then shun bian went to bpp to buy bubble tea! went jo's house slacked and everything. jo concluded that MGT thing only happened among table tennis ppl. so what should i do? get a RUGBY bf?REUBEN! rugby reuben is alliteration but still i love d more:(

2006-12-01T07:32:00.000+08:00

leyi's car pouch

the presents! earmuffs inside beanie:)

the most successful wrapping done by pro tifen!

us!

i m a good photographer! lixuan looks so cute here lo.

2006-12-01T07:24:00.001+08:00

just a message of concern and i got all the shit
WHAT DID I DO.
i only sms one person. none other than jethro to ask abt his whereabts to ask him to read his email.
WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG.
other ppl told me abt u.
WHY I M THE DISGUSTING ONE.
the simplest qns u can ever answer. on or off. and u said u dunno.
WHAT IS UR PROBLEM.
u said u need time and i say i give u 3 days.
WHATS MY FREAKING PROBLEM.

i dont want to be like G and M who just wait and wait and wait and wait and get NO REPLY at all.
finally plucking up guts. thats what me and M got in return.whats wrong u this world. whats wrong with both of u.
those losers and morons at loose just dont have any nerve receptor in them
they laugh inside them at our stupidity. they treated us like fools who can just wait and wait wait and dont get angry or pissed with them
what are we? DOGS WITH HEARTLESS OWNERS.
we are just shit, desperate ppl. desperate for love in return from those ppl out there who dont give a dman abt us, who freaking dont adore us AT ALL.
and what do us get in return instead? 2 words:
FUCK OFF.

this is rants of sadness. not anger.
yes. i did this while i'm crying, but what does he know.
M sends her thrashed letter and she broke down, what does he know again.

2006-11-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

got scolded by mum for going out when i was sick so stayover at jo's hse was cancelled

my mum is being such a bitch i dont feel like talking to her at all.
my sis is worse. i think both of them really love making my life miserable.

spoilt my mp3 while running today.great. and my sis told me the warranty was over 3 days ago. dont any of you remind me how bad my life is now.

-after 30 mins-

fought with my sis but sarah's sms made my day!
and my msia trip is pending now. i m so angry with my sis lousy communication skills plus she had some presentation thing suddenly so she cant skip sch to accompany me.i feel so irritated now the fact that she just tell me today. i think i shall go her room and keep on farting later.

today met up with eve seline leyi and shopped around bugis junction for lixuan's farewell gift. bought earmuffs and beanie.super cute!

went airport and saw her with zhang sai. took some pics and off she went!
now i think of it they are really sweet. but i m quite sad abt it. elaine and dcube, lixuan and zhangsai. 2 couples at one go.OH MY:(

went to eat and shopped at bugis village!!!!!!!!!!that place is so not for tiffy. this is the SECOND time i went there.
first time was with daddy! daddy big hand take mummy's small hand and walked through the @#%$%& crowd. we didnt get anth but a fruit juice i think?haha. was rather unwilling to get my ass inside that time so we didnt really get into any shop.
second time- seline leyi eve was ok with going there and i just tagged along. funnily, none of them bought anything except me! trust me. the halter smocked top i bought is totally non-ahlianish. :) saw this really cute dress i wanted to buy.its really pure sweet and decent! shall go agn and get that when i got the $ and mood plus time. there wasnt many shops which i feel like getting in and get a look. except for the shoes shops i guess? but i still want the zara 89 bucks red glittery pumps! any kind soul care to buy that as my christmas gift?

i realised seline is totally a peeper who likes to peep at the vision direction of other ppl. then she will go kan4 kan4 kan4 miao2 miao2 miao2(look look look basically).

2006-11-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

thanks everyone for the concern. sisters are the best:)

hello. today is a no sarah day.so tifen will have to post pics herself:( haha. maybe one day i should try to learn to break the habit of typing links in my blogspot to let readers have more info or see pics.thats bad.

met up with seline at city hall at 11.15 and was back at 6.40.oh my. oh.we wore the some shade of brown today!haha!

shopped arnd raffles point and seline picked out a dress from island shop for me to try.its not bad but the cut doesnt fit me well. guess if i really wanted to buy it i wld have to plead with my mum to do some alteration. saw this heels which i wanted to.but they are ex! dress is 79 bucks and heels are 59 bucks. ugh.money money. went into lots of expensive shops and saw quite a few good stuff but obviously we do not have the money to buy it for now.maybe 10 yrs down the road i may even find nine west cheapo.HAHA.
saw this super princessy looking hairband which i totally lub-dub it.ARGH!!!!i was so high after that and just keep picturing myself wearing it. OH AM GEEE!i want it i want it!but i guess it doesnt fit me now. want to know y? continue reading!

so we went to citylink mall and went into almost every single shop. bought this smocked shirt from tian studio.sarah i found it! haha! and seline got her denim 3 quarts from sense! then we headed down to marina square for my hair cut! its like oh am gee ah lian-ish/guy-ish. i think my hair looks cooler than daddy's red hair now.thats kind of weird.i mean i didnt expect this guy to treat my hair like a guy's. ugh.i miss vanessa:(. the guy started giving bad comments abt my hair the moment he saw it.he was like its so super thick, filled with dandruff,unstyled, tangled ends.like thats why i come for a cut? anw.after he had learnt of how lazy i m to take care of my hair, he said he will cut a hair with no parting for me so it wont look so messy anymore. so i happy dozed off after that! and after i woke up, there goes my hair.

shopped around summore after that we bought hairbands from ice lemon tee. and continue to try on more clothes

ty seline for helping me to look out clothes which fits me!i have a rough idea of what i should shop for in the future alr:)

oh. at first we saw this stage set up for some "little robots" live show and this host was like shouting on stage. me and seline saw her like quite pathetic cuase we didnt see anyone replying her so we decided to check it out.and guess what. only those with receipt more than 30 bucks of purchase of little robots products then can attend the show.like super wth.they totally deserves not havin any audience. we tried to take pics with

but was stopped by

booo.

not forgetting the happy times.

2006-11-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

i have been feeling so miserable today. wake up early in the morning and my flu got worse. had some body aches due to the dance lesson! sarah! my shoulder muscles are so tense! i can walk down stairs due to my freaking aching thighs!:( to worsen the situation, my flu gave even more aches. it got really unbearable for certain times today. i had to force my jnr and sandra GO to help me massage my shoulder. oh guan yin ma.

head back strt after 2 oclock matches. didnt eat much today as i have totally no appetite. so i got a small bowl of mee hun kueh for the day, not forgetting a dozen of pills. i think i seriously overdose. take 4 pills this morning and 4 pills just now. 2 of each type of medicine. and guess what. u r only supposed to eat one of each for the WHOLE DAY.

hope that i dont die in my slp tonight. guan yin ma/god/krishna/si4 mian4 buddha pls bless me.

i miss daddy.really badly:(

2006-11-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

just came home from mrs chitra house. my manna is depleting by the second. shall do this fast.

jas: hello babe! haha. i guess we did have fun? stop crying and join us! regarding the work vs fun ppl thing. i suggest that u toss a coin.HAHA. i dont want u to hate me in the future. AND! pls do some REAL good deeds if u r staying in the job. PERSUADE them to STOP SMOKING. its for ur own good too. god. pls dont be used to the smell. it might cause ur death at a freaking age of 20 sth?HAHA. i think thats a bit exaggerating. but still its baddddd.
and yea. i m trying hard. thanks for ur concern anw:) tifen believes things will get better

woke up. watched tv and met sarah chan at raffles place.was so super early for the lesson.and guess what. we met KONG XIN YING.haha. didnt know she really loves dancing so much. she actually took up 2 consecutive courses at the same time. changed into my pyjamas looking long pants and lesson started! we got this super spicy hot tchr farah.i look like a total noob in the beginning but i guess i started to pick it up along the way. anw, she has bad time management skills. her stretching took up so much time and she had to teach us so much stuff in a short 20 mins time.i realised my legs have lousy coordination thats y i was seen topsy turvy most of the time.HAHA.washed up and left. went to raffles city where we had thai express and headed down to suntec! 4 plus met up with jasmine at yck then pr and jo came. mr maran fetched us to the house and we had a super fun time! well, i think not exactly for me?haha. fell aslp when they were watching "mind ur language" and was sneezing badly most of the time. and i guess due to my mense hendricks and this funny thing keep stucking their noses into my holy body part. mrs chitra house is really big and nice and there's roof terrace! i want i want!for pics, pls go to www.misdirection-.blogspot.com
i have a nose like rudolph's. join me in this festive season.

where are u

2006-11-26T07:37:00.000+08:00

theres things going on between daddy and me and some of you know. typed a long email to him cause i dont want to get bashed(HAHA!) but seriously i dont want to get into any physical/verbal fights. as all of you know, tifen dont know how to tifen will bound to lose.so theres no use. he needs a peaceful and calm situation to get sth into his head. (or maybe not too quiet. during lessons he doesnt get much in too). yea. so i realised i am quite fluent in writing long eng essay in a crazy mood. funny vocabs start pouring out and tifen's magical hands will string all the eng words into sensible sentences. so i typed an email which is REALLY long within the most 15 mins? well , maybe inside i wasnt really that calm. but i tried my best!
last night was the worst night. when i found out everything was just a joke. SORRY DADDY. but i guess theres much more inside the letter that i wished to tell him, thus i did not stop him from reading it though. but seriously, a gf who read such stuff w/o learning its all just jokes, it can just tear her apart.
learning that now, i guess both of us are at fault.
him- though i confronted him once, he didnt make it clear or tell me what everything btwn them are exactly about.
me- intruding his privacy
ppl reading this may think that i m a crazy gf. like which gf on earth does that. sorry. i need the assurance.if theres an insurance for bf cheating on gf i wld surely be the first to sign up. mainly because i have lost all confidence in me.
elaine: stand up.
may: love urself a bit more.
thanks babes.

posting this is in hope that daddy will read it. anyone uninterested pls go www.playfirst.com
bye.

2006-11-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

2006-11-25T18:07:00.000+08:00

hi ppl. i installed back the comp in my room!!!yay!!! but but but. my freaky sis refuse to give me back the modem. so i m stuck with this stupid wireless thing whose speed is 5.5 Mbps. how nice. i realise my sis's like karang guni. when i dissected my comp last time she just grab anth that can make her laupok comp more pro. so she took my cpu and modem. and discarded the rest into some dusty corner in my room. zai.
anw.i believe those who visit my blog wld have read www.carcrashlove-.blogspot.com and www.oneof3-jo.blogspot.com .HAHA. elaine!!!this will be a decent post! their blogs just give an outline of what our jobs are like.but i will say it from my point of view

yea. first say.we met up and headed down to ~~hotel 81~~ the boon sing building beside h81. it was rather crowded in the puny room already but everything seems fine and quiet.there's fiona who didnt give us black face during the days we worked. so i guess we were wrong abt her? but after that a guy with funnily dyed hair came in and open a door behind fiona which reveals lots more funny hair.hot/fiery coloured hairs. this shocks tifen. after that boss lee brought us into the room too and assigned us to different leaders. and i got this leader who proclaim he's a gay but most imptly, he loves shouting OH SHIT. i tell u, u can never have a proper conversation with him. indeed. for the 2 days i'm working i DIDNT. i love giving him short and crude replies. he just shouts all day ALL DAY. and in most sentences he just ends with OH SHIT. so i always reply by giving him a :\ face or just a forced out smile or a OH. then after the team meeting and morning meeting which involves nth but shouting agn. after we are splitted into teams we headed out of the building. AND ONCE I REACHED THE GROUND FLOOR, i was greeted by air of PSI 1000. this horrifies tifen. most of the guys just fished out their cigarettes and started smoking. what went through my mind was just like !@%%&Q#$&@ @^@#^. i managed to tell my leader not to smoke during lunch though.and he didnt after that which is good. at the end of the day we went back reported with pathetic one book did evaluation form and verbal evaluation with boss lee. I WANT HOT BOSS! but thats not the point. i told him i wanted to quit. mainly because i dont like the environment(those ppl). but i didnt say abt my second reason abt the wrong motive thing, i mean they will just say anth to defend themselves. so i decided to shut abt that. but i m nice ok!I DIDNT NAME NAMES.ahaha!i just realise this sounds familiar. like some XOXO blog. i just say like some guys which i dunno their names. ok. i mean they didnt influence me or what. but seriously, i dont wanna be seen arnd with them. what if any of my relatives saw and tell my mum abt it.
END OF TIFFY.
also, personally i dont like the fact that they smokes. i really resent ppl who smokes, they dont only harm themselves but harm others also. like wth. they only breathe in 30% while passive smokers breathed in 70% of the bad things. since they harm us more, they are BAD PPL.and friends, if u all close to me enough, u all will know i do have cousins like those ppl. and i dont really mix arnd with them also.
abt the wrong motive thing. its clear aint it. on the surface, they tell us we are working we got the money and we are doing good deeds! deeds their head. deep inside they know they are working hard for their own money aint it? and seriously, HOW MUCH ARE THERE LEFT TO GIVE TO THE NEEDY. if i were to sell charity tix as my work. i wld seriously just go do as volunteers. i wld feel more happy and at ease. on my second working day there's this disabled lady who plead with me not to work there anymore then i said dont feel like too. haii.

the next day went out with daddy then met up with sarah. in 4 hours, we vivisted art museum, fire fighter heritage museum, a photo gallery at bras basah complex. signed up with the street jazz course at studio wu and also went down to coffee bean at boat quay. had a long long talk while drinking my white chocolate dream. i just pour out everything in me to sarah. about present and future. we really have got lots to sit down and think abt. i dont wanna regret anth in the future. for pictures, go to www.misdirection-.blogspot.com

today met up with jo and headed down to boonsing building to collect my pay. pathetic sixty bucks. told angie that i m quitting. and we went to my usual eating place to have my meal. then me and jo wanted to go orchard tgd so we took the same WRONG WAY BUS!haha. so was super late for church and now i m back!

saw ads of discovery centre and i really feel like visiting it. anyone pls?

2006-11-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

hi. i went out everyday since O's ended.managed to catch the last bus for 2 nights!went clarke quay for 2 nights!will post pics soon. pls refer to elaine sarah jas jo blog for more info. thanks! anw. i quit my second job on the first day of work:)bye all!

2006-10-24T11:13:00.000+08:00

i bet everyone must be thinking these days "WHERE IS PRETTY T!"
OK.OK!haha. apparently tifen went on hiatus w/o a word.

ok!tifen is gonna start nesting at home or my nosey or anywhere else and start mugging! haha.TIFEN NOSTRILS SAYS GOODBYE!

forget the past happy days.
as there will be more created by u and me in the future.
wont it?

2006-10-14T18:00:00.000+08:00

tifen's green bra says good evening! HAHA.

decided not to go any open hse ytd. so tifen was being a loner the whole of ytd.
went to sa open hse today with rah and jas. nth much.when we reached there all of their goodie bags(shoe bag with nth much inside) were given out.then rah went home after the forty mins visit.SOMEMORE SHE DRESSED SO NICELY AND EVEN TOOK A ONE-STOP BUS!HAHAHAHAHHA.
yupp. me and jas went town. she want to look at the bags at NUM cause she was given this 50 bucks voucher from HiCcup goodie bag.but seems llike num bag are really not that pleasant looking yet expensive.weird.why wld anyone want a bag form there.=X
went church and home! i need motivation to study man.i shall start thinking of sarah now. hope she dont sneeze the whole block down man.

2006-10-13T07:46:00.000+08:00

,PEOPLE! I HAD A BIG DISCOVERY!
PLS DONT TYPE WWW.DELUSIFIED-.BLOGSPOT.COM WHEN U WANT TO VISIT MY BLOG! that blog is abt muscovy ducks shit thing.HAHA

Anaw. the day b3fore ytd which is wednesday! talented tifen and the 3 Js- jaguar jo, joker jasmine, johnny jaslin went to eat at thai noodle house after sch! not bad not bad.then jasmine ordered the ruby dessert.which i think is too sweet. but at least it's in just sufficient amt unlike thai express.yepp .than went serene mac to study a while and went home!

ytd had 2 freaking mock exams. c lit and chem. ok clit is not so bad. copied most of the time. and everyone was forced to compose sth-poem or unexpect yet expect ending(-.-) to some story.most of us chose the poem duh. the topic is on si1 nian4. so me and enqi wrote super crap poems. YUE4 LIANG4 BIAN3 YOU4 BIAN3!
had dinner with sis that i will finish watching goong with her till 11 and i slept at 9.30!:D

2006-10-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

when the whole world tries to correct tifen's dictionary
tifen's world is thunderstorming
dont u all know whats wrong?
tifen is not trying to defy anything
but she insiste that some definitions should remain unchanged
isnt it?

2006-10-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

had one hr thrity six mins and 42 secs talk with elaine! haha
ok long long long conver. i've got so much things to say. but actually not a lot. but i have to reinforce the shock in me so i have to talk longer.haha. so babes. just recovered from my emotive roller coaster ride.
why oh why.
pls dont puke when i say i m innocent ok. ok. maybe not innocent. maybe i m just a country bumpkin. i need to be more exposed to this world.
shouldnt i just stop tinking abt whats wrong with this world for a moment? i cant.

2006-10-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

was called to see ds today too. well, jo it's ok! i really wish i can help to get this over soon too.
when i saw ds and lc i m really shaking like mad. i hands tremble when i show them my hp. i stammer when i ans their qns. and guess what. i m so scared i dont even know h0w to control my hp anymore!

i need to talk to someone desperately now.

2006-10-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

dramatic, screwed day. what can i still say. even if i m not involved, i can feel sth's not gonna be rht.
oh. i told enqi my second deepest sercret which i have been trying to stop myself from telling anyone. i think she's shocked.

we are all deeply loved
let them love u

2006-10-10T06:31:00.000+08:00

hi babes. me jo jas and rah had a pon sch date ytd!ad ms chua called us all!poor jas poor jas. she went to jo's hse to seek refuge early in the morning and smses and calls started flooding her like mad!OH AM GEEEEEEE
if u want to read the dramatic version, pls go to www.carcrashlove-.blogspot.com!
guess what. my dad pon work too. he was called up too by his boss i guess and he just slacked the whole day awayy. i mean i rather he just stayed at home and have some movie marathon or what. but instead he initiated to cook us lunch! oh wellzzz. i seriously never trusted his cooking. the previous time he cooked us a meal and it was chao da!god. and ytd he cooked us NORMAL RICE, luncheon meat and egg. but i dunno what he did to the luncheon meat. half of them are not yet fully cooked while the other half is overcooked. zhen shi yi ji bang! so we ended up having our fat-bull-less egg+plain rice for lunch.
ugh. went mac to study after lunch and immediately ordered mc fish dippers! oh it's heavenly! haha.
let's all grow fat with Mr McDonalds.

2006-10-08T22:07:00.000+08:00

tantifatty (MAY TAN insists on calling me this) is gonna add to my post O's list.

nytt camp
nytt crazy party:D

haze is over. the memories are not yet rewind. we wont die:)

2006-10-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

hi.went marina square today. tifen like things short and swt. bye.

i am not as generous as you think.
the wind embrace a forest. not a tree.

2006-10-08T11:21:00.000+08:00

hihohiho!
DONT DIE FROM THE HAZE!

just finished tuition! i think my tutor should seriously grow taller. today he keep knocking my door and i cant see who's outside so i m FREAKED OUT! haha.
jaslin's blogpost have seriously made rah and me gone all excited!i shall make up my list too!
1) get my imac book! (strt after O's!)
2) dance lesson! ( found the studio- jitterbus swingapore! mum agreed to sponser me!)
3) CLUBBING!
4) PARTIES!
5) SHOPPING!
6) everything not mentioned here but on jas's list!

BIGGEST PLAN NOW!
SAVE MONEY MONEY MONEY!

MONEY MONEY MONEY!
IT'SDISAPPEARING, IN TIFEN'S WORLD!D:

2006-10-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

yoohooyoohoo! tifen got a new hp!it's sony ericssonK618i! i know it's not that fabulous. not that pretty. but I M DESPERATE! my mum got a low budget so no choice man. hai

stayed home the whole day! except that i went out in the afternn to buy hp. at first wanna go out and study one. but my mama INITIATED to go and buy hp! haha.only morons will reject this date man. this is the only exciting thing for the day.
in the morning was still feeling quite sad that i cant go out. i turn down the breakfast date then the swimming date and i didnt go church.ROARRRR. i know i m a bad girl:
jas and tifen shall go cut hair next wk and go vivo city soon! currently only 60% of the shops are open. we shall go when more shops are open k!

jas makes me realise that i like to type (msn/hp) in 3rd person.haha.i dunno why man.

persuaded enqi on fri to propose a bbq for our class at the end of yr. i know i know i know.i know 414 will have a big question mark and an even bigger exclaimation mark wil pop up in their heads.
a) WHO WILL GO?
b)IT WILL SURE FAIL!
ok. maybe the b part is what i think.haha. but if they think no one will go that means it's a failure right? ah ha!

PSI: 126.
I HATE THE HAZE. mooncake festival with no moon. question mark question mark

2006-10-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

helloh. 5 days of sch. 3 days late. so tifen is there but no attendance taken. super chi kui:
was feeling rather guilty yesterday for not studying much from mon to wed. so being the usual harkworking me, i mugged thru the night! ok. not exactly sll thru. slept for 1 or 2 hrs?yepp.not bad alr k.
after sch went for 3 hrs of c lit dictation agn.how nice. actually i didnt finish doing the paper. just asked chun hui and mu hui to ~~lie~~INFORM mdm tee that we have finished the paper and we ~~sneaked~~ proudly walk away! haha.
boooo. i missed their apple strudel date! should have just ponned c lit man.
anw. just came back form watching STAY ALIVE at yishun with daddy! stay alive is not really that scary. but if the audience are ppl who indulge in freaking scary comp/psp/xbox games, it will be a diff case. the movie is rather short. like about an hour? but the good thing is that it's so not draggy.kill, die, bye bye.

2006-10-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

i ppl. ytd went home early and went out with daddy! saw this nice nike RED bag and i m so tempted to buy. but i didnt in the end cause there's only 2 wks of sch left? maybe i m going to make it even shorter.haha.yea.then when i figure out i wont be such a good girl and leave it till next yr to use it.so forget it.haha. saw this paul frank yellow pull-over and it's so cute!!!want it want it:D
came home early today and sort of slack my day away again. i have finally learnt to sleep on elaine's shoulder! claps for tiffy!

2006-10-02T16:01:00.000+08:00

hi ppl! i m trying hard to find the same colour bg for the pink panther alr. haha.bear with the funny template for a moment.
yea babes.pon chi lesson with jaslin this morning!haha.we went KAP and this man keep staring at us. but we are not the only ponners ok! there is still a nerdy brown uni ponner too. lessons are rather boring today. nearly fell aslp during chem man. ugh. i shall go study for the C lit test tml. bye!

2006-10-01T22:41:00.000+08:00

hi pretties. sorry for tiffy's pink craze.hw and boredom are really killing me.i think it looks like some dumb blonde's blog now.haha.are u staring hard? stare harder! PINK IS GOOD FOR UR EYES.
doesnt everyone use the phrase "PINK IN HEALTH"?
tifen says," pretty pink panther!" :D

2006-10-01T13:32:00.000+08:00

ugh.blogspot's such a bitch. made a few flash and wanted to put them here but it cant load!wth.
ok. FINALLY editted my links!haha.no more outdated links.:D changed my blog pic too!hmm. kinda sick but funny! me and ren ying saw those FAKE BOOBIES from DAISO at PS.haha. the purpose of them are actually to let those poor guys who want to be girls to paste them on their chest.haha.i wonder why wld DAISO sell such stuff. funnaye.

when it has all ended. i've got no one to blame. everything just fades away so naturally. ur heart is locked. ur mind is fogged. u blinded me from everything,banning my access to anything in you. what more have i got to say.

2006-10-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

i feel bad.didnt go to church ytd.everyone are hvaing their exams these 2 wks and they went but i didnt! never mind. i shall think of other people who havent been to church fro ages, example of this girl by the surname of chan. HAHA

studied overnite with daddy. okaye. not exactly overnite.haha.slept at arnd 2. i think my brain aint working anymore after exams. i have been doing hw so slowly and i find that i cant do most of the w/o references. that's bad. that's very bad.

2006-09-29T20:14:00.000+08:00

chicks!
wed- had tuition in the morning then went to j8 for shepherding with liping. forced her to go bishan community lib with me! i like the children's corner there! oh man. it's such a perfect place to take an afternoon nap. it's like cosy, quiet and i see an ac couple dating there lovingly! haha. www. what a cute place. walls pasted with cute little cards made by kiddos, expressing their love to bishan lib.corridors nicely painted with interesting graphic timeline "YOU AND ME TWO MILLION YRS AGO!". at other lvls, there are transparent cubicles or rather cosy corners for teenagers to hide and discuss in small grps. i think they should put a small table with mini legs so that ppl can sit on the grnd and use the table to do work tgd! saw daphne and i tot she's peiyu=X

thurs- went back to sch. got back depressing results. i m not even a monolingual now. how sad. this is the worst chi results i have ever gotten in my life. ugh. c lit is a such a disappintment. hai. and there goes the irritating nehneh jing. was so sleepy on bus that i nearly fall off the chair a few times. poor sexy missile cant slp and have to keep an eye on me.haha

fri-normal lessons today.but almost all are crap. aft sch went to ps with ren ying! ate at eclectic attic. nice and cosy! although it may seem a big messy. ate pasta arabitta and THIS AND THAT! haha. okaye. this and that is actually 3 minature cakes. yummy!oh. the cafe cum shop got this furry moomoo colour sofa! pretty:D

i just hoped that i am acknowledged. whats wrong.

2006-09-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

hi babes. the e learning on ivle has just scared the shit outta me. haha. its so rubbish. the tchrs had apparently written something for the o lvl tack students but nth can be found in the workbin. so mrs c and mdm t had replied my msg and tell me there's actually NTH for us:D. good.
yesterday went swimming with seline in the morning! haha.okaye. i keep feeling everyone is staring at me agn. so i keep stopping in the middle of nowhere in the pool to ensure my assets are covered.haha. so seline was telling me it's because i keep staring at ppl while swimming thats why i feel that ppl are staring at me. but actually they are all busy swimming. but i still dont think so. maybe i should consider wearing my diver swimsuit agn.: everything was fine until when we are getting out of the pool. seline was climbing the steps when she slipped and POOF! back into the pool! haha.unlucky her. 2 lifeguards standing a dist away saw her. they were quite shocked at first then they start sniggering.
seline: it's been long since i get an orangey tan
tifen: orangey as in? colour? sense of touch?
seline: hahah. wrinkled skin? no.
tifen: then u get an orange-colour tan?
seline: no.
tifen: then?
seline: the trees are beautiful.
thn at last she tell me it's the feel. but i still dont understand. how can any tan gives u an orangey feel.

2006-09-27T12:17:00.000+08:00

2006-09-25T18:42:00.000+08:00

hi virgins:)
was so bored and i decided to make a trip down tpy to rent vcds! rented final dest 3 and long time dead(not very sure) watched final dest 3 and i think the plot sucks. it has not much diff with the previous final dests. i think the scriptwriter wrote final dest for the sake of having a sequel thats all. the only thing that's better is just how the ppl die? the victims in final dests 3 die more tragic-ly.haha. and it's quite rubbish. because of these 2 women who strip and let their na-nas boing in front of the screen, the show is rated M18.just like house of wax. i dont even think there is a need for PH and those 2 women to be naked in the show man. pffbt.

2006-09-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

KONICHIWA FELLOW NUNGAS! :D
SUNDAY MORNING TIFEN'S PRETTY:) (sing to the tune of sunday morning by maroon 5)
pretty T went swimming!for some unknown reason, i keep feeling that everyone was staring at me at the pool.HAHA. i was so conscious of my appearance that i look like some conservative freak desperately trying to use a small tight-fitting piece of cloth to cover every part of my body.what an adorable chick.
had teppanyaki for lunch! but was quite broke so i only ordered this 6.80 sliced pork which SUCKS (pretty badly)
tried to study and DO the relative velocity qns in tys.it could have been the hardest challenge pretty t took on. spent 2 hrs doing 1 qns and pretty t finally gave up. haha.i think i am quite determined alr. the only one qns i did got PART A B C OK! SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO.
pretty t start doing bio tys instead. :)
bye nungas! i am going to start my BB agn!in case u dunno what is it, it is the BATTLE with BLACKHEADS, NOT boobies boing.

eversoft facial wash
avene exfoliating scrub
biore cleasing strip
t zone deep pore cleansing

THE VICTORY IS PRETTY T'S TODAY!-evil laughs-

2006-09-23T20:57:00.000+08:00

FART MATES!:D
i want to change my layout.but i m too lazy to upload my cam pics so as to change them.so
YIPPYYIPPYYEAYEAYEAYAYCHICKAPOO!
there will be no new layout soon. :D
waited 31 mins!!!!!! for stella the ugly at buzz and we went to eat zha yu rou mi fen! that stupid woman made me wait for so long lo! boo !but anw. i spent that 31 mins preparing the exam kit for daddy! toblerone cadbury kinder bueno time out tictacs! all for daddy!yuppyupp.so we went to church tgd! it's been long since i saw an overflowing nexus audi man. anw.i think i am quite screwed for MM today.haha.i forgot all the functions of the buttons for the video mixer!and i freeze jasmine on the big screen!and central A had a meal at meridien after that. i totally mixed up THE camillia and shirlene! lao mu yang!!!
for some reason, i feel so freaking fat today. i feel that my tummy is bursting with blobs of lipids chunks of minced meat layers of fatty acids. why oh why.someone pls sponser pretty t for a 10 course slimming session. shun4 bian4 sponser for breast reduction. MY NUNGA NUNGAS ARE FATS TOO D:

2006-09-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO JO!
HELLO MOTO!

2006-09-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

hi babes. i am not in a good mood now. had been throwing a tantrum after i reached home.
WARNING: you might see ~~some~~ many effs
i failed my combined human terribly with a F9. its pretty 39 marks. (let me hear you scream OMG in ur lovely bitchy voice) for the first time i scored higher for my ss compared to my hist.this funny chubby Fugly ass marked my SEQ for ss and hist and she failed both my SEQ with less than 10 pts each.PRETTY.
went out with rah and jas.and i finally get to see rah's vintage cam. we went all over to look for HOG's breath cafe. i think it's rather disappointing. it seems to be trying to copy BillyBong cafe style.but it is just less than half as vintage as BillyBong. so there was nothing really fascinating there.it was just the serviettes(sorry if i got Fousy spelling) thats really cute. cutie Hog.jas, HOG! and because rah and jas wanted to keep them, 3 of us had to shared one serviette which is mine.haha.after that we went to walk around and when we were just about to leave we saw this PARTY SHOP!everything inside are real cute!but this Flut were like talking behind our back when we were walking out just because we me and jas were playing with the rabbit ears and took a pic with it.bitchy Fitchy.
dinner time!bye bye.have fun reading puny words!

2006-09-21T17:27:00.000+08:00

when the whole world are deeply in love with their wai yu, inc daddy!MR handsome will be waiting for pretty T!

2006-09-21T17:16:00.000+08:00

hi ho hi ho!got back a maths paper today.quite depressing for me.my tutor is like replying me a sad 'OH'. ohZZZZ wellZZZZZ. after that got chem pract and i cant seem to get anth right. mdm T too.she cant get the exact measurement for titration and she's sad. she was like "how come! t's just 23.8 and it turned orange!" but tifen dont really bothers all the time so she was like "hur.-fake laughs- can la. it's near the exact measurement"
mdm T: BUT I WANT TO GET THE RIGHT MEASUREMENT!
shocked tifen.
and after that everyone start asking her about our chem marks so she disclosed it to us after the pract!scary lo. she read out everyone marks and tifen got A1! jas and rah are not bad influences indeed both my sciences and maths improved like shoooooooooooo! and hoped one day my results will really be like SHOO!:D
PRETTY T! IS ON CLOUD 10!
I CAN SEE HUNKS WAITING FOR PRETTY T! AT NoochJ! MAO MAO QIAN JING I M HERE!

"OH baby! look at ur scrunched up face there. why are u so disappinted? i know u worked hard! u worked hard even when the teacher said put ur pens down. i know! i know. fret no more. Yummy jc is waiting for you.dont be sad. dont be:)"

2006-09-21T17:04:00.000+08:00

hi ho hi ho!got back a maths paper today.quite depressing for me.my tutor is like replying me a sad 'OH'. ohZZZZ wellZZZZZ. after that got chem pract and i cant seem to get anth right. mdm T too.she cant get the exact measurement for titration and she's sad. she was like "how come! t's just 23.8 and it turned orange!" but tifen dont really bothers all the time so she was like "hur.-fake laughs- can la. it's near the exact measurement"
mdm T: BUT I WANT TO GET THE RIGHT MEASUREMENT!
shocked tifen.
and after that everyone start asking her about our chem marks so she disclosed it to us after the pract!scary lo. she read out everyone marks and tifen got A1! jas and rah are not bad influences indeed both my sciences and maths improved like shoooooooooooo! and hoped one day my results will really be like SHOO!:D
PRETTY T! IS ON CLOUD 10!

"OH baby! look at ur scrunched up face there. why are u so disappinted? i know u worked hard! u worked hard even when the teacher said put ur pens down. i know! i know. fret no more. Yummy jc is waiting for you.dont be sad. dont be:)"

2006-09-20T18:16:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS ARE OVER!
got back eng ss and bio today.HAHA.
ytd morning i was rushing to take the earliest bus and when i am just about to make a turn into the lobby i bumped into this uncle who looked perfect for a lead actor in horror movie !HAHA.scary but cute uncle though.he was rather apologetic when he wasnt in the wrong. maybe he was apologising for freaking me out with his ___ look.sorry!
had e math paper which i think was quite easy.got this heptagon qns which everyone tried their luck and take it as 7 sides. while stupid tifen actually take it as 5 sides!oh aint i another d cube?dumb dumb dumb. after sch went home, change, and went out again!
met up with lainey!headed down to bugis then to Haji Lane.tifen is lazy.read elaine's blog! bye bye!

2006-08-25T18:29:00.000+08:00

hello!had dental ytd and thank God. my ulcer just pop up today. if it popped up ytd i wld have died.haha. ooooh. today i went to elaine's house! now i know why she never let anyone into her hse. my goodness.it's wrose than a slum. iher room's like those kind of elderly studio apartment!( one which had all the rubbish piled up everywhr every inch of the floor!) haha.the phone is on her bed. alarm clock is there but not working. there is a netball?! a ladder improvised into a rubbish display table. 10 inch high books surrounding the perimeter of her bed. a small teeny aisle that u have to squeeze thru to get into the toilet.goodness. but luckily it's just her room. she can just lock her room whole day to prevent it from spoiling the pretty image of her hse. oh! i like her da vince sofa set. and i saw her brother! hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahha! i dunno how to describe her brother. WOW!
math math math !

2006-08-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

pretty T's blog is rather dead. but she is here to revive it agn!
prelims is coming! but i have not done much revision man. everyday is flooded by C lit and more C lit.zheng lao laopppppppppp.oh anw.she allows me to call her zheng lao lao! HAHA! CRAZY WOMAN! me and enqi were just gossipping abt zheng lao lao then she walked past us and i shouted zheng lao lao! hahaha.she was just like ORH! DENG WO YI XIA! hmmm.so i think that she dont mind that nickname?
me and elaine went shopping at orchard ytd! we spend the whole time at taka.haha.art firend is fun! but i am penniless so didnt buy anth. but now i know where i can buy those funny stuff to make a unique present! oh. after that we actually take 167 from orchard to yishun ok. farrrrrrrr.but we can sleep for all we want so it's not too bad la. haha.
oooh. i changed my blogskin! u can see en qi on it!
i wont be blogging agn after a long while. cheong for prelims!

2006-07-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

hello. pretty chitra didnt come to class for 2 days! spinster teng said her knees were swollen and the pus or whatever funny liquid inside had to be sucked out.OUCH.
OUCH AGN. cause we had to do compo for two days. our class is super guai. but i think it's a good thing. prcs PUSH!:)
oh. we are supposed to do dunman prelim paper ytd and i chose the topic 'CHANGE'. and so that's how my story goes
setting is at lawyer firm. me and MR. hubby are supposed to sign papers for divorce. and i am out of mind to write that i m the one who got involved with a third party.PETER. i described mr hubby as a mr wonderful and i, the evil woman. my son, Alex, is then given to him. actually me and peter were tgd for quite a while. and i am so determined to break up with him that day. but he pleaded me and so i gave in agn. how soft hearted i am. so he drove into the carpark and he saw us! stupid woman. tou qing also tou qing at own carpark.i felt so dumb to have thought of writing this kind of plot. WHY DID I DESCRIBE MYSELF AS THIS KIND OF WOMAN?!
hahah. maybe one day i become a slut?
DADDY! MUMMY WONT!

2006-07-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

hello. ytd after school was c lit test agn. owells. that tee bitch wasnt free to spy on us. so we had a discussion session instead. we realised there's sth wrong with ny standard agn. ny students= elites? NOOOO! after which went to run with seline at khatib stadium. second running session of the day! but didnt run much actuaslly. white school shoes+ ny pe shorts+ ny pe tee= superb running outfit.
today went for breakthrough 1000 and service! i realised whenever this particular worship song blasted in the auditorium, the whole church atmosphere was really good. fantastic! like i can sense God is really in the house(: also , for some reason, whener this song was played, i couldnt help it but tear when i raise my hands and sing like this is the last song i can sing agn. i think sarah will know how sad i will be if i cant sing anymore. haha.

Make A Difference (G)
Verse:
you Lord, take a look at our hands
Everything we have, use it for your plan
Won't you Lord, take a look at our hearts
Mould it refine it as you set us apart

Chorus:
We want to run to the altar and catch the fire
To stand in the gap between the living and the dead
Give us a heart of compassion for world without vision
We will make a difference bringing hope to our land.

hmm. this is the lyrics. the best i can find. but i think my church improvised it? cause it seems a bit different. oh. before i went out today i tried tying different hairstyle i watched on tv this morning. but i realised i tried till my arms felt so tired like they were going to detach from my body anytime. so i asked my mum to help me. it succeed! but when i just reached the mrt station a small bunch of my hair just slip out of the big clip. SEE. I TOLD YOU.MY SHAMPOO AND HAIR CONDITIONER ARE GOOD. MY HAIR SUPER SMOOTH DE NEH.

2006-07-10T18:32:00.000+08:00

yoyoYO!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFEN!
thank you daddy sarah jas jo kelly liping phuaywah winnie minzhen choonmin melissa claire sandy for celabrating with me!
still got ali den wanting aunty trent elaine gav jasmine shoo may for your birthday messages! i hope i dont miss out anyone!
thanks for all the presents even though most of them are inapporpriate! haha! undersize bra condom and diva feathery thing. haha.
this new term is screwed anyway. oh GOD. REVIVE ME!

slutty girlfriends duo!

tifen the sexiest glamourest DIVA!

dick dicky dick dicky

2006-07-01T18:01:00.000+08:00

i am blogging! fri went to jo's hse to stay over nite! me and jo went to ntuc to get alcohol and we succeed! eat play blah blah and i fell aslp at 1+ while they slept at 3+. stupid ah chan watch final destination until very scared then sms me hoping that the didididididid sound of incoming sms will wake me up. DUMB girl. wake up early and went to sch! prepared to set up stall and went off to play! we took this 6 bucks uncle ringo ride. the force from the rapid revolving of the machine totally gonna tear our face off and ah chan's vulgarities just spew out of her mouth like 10 spurts/sec. haha. it is really exciting but it had made all of us sickkkkk. booo. so me and jas had to go first aid and take medicated oil. the whole fun fair was ok. 413 spirit touches me. sarah got too much money to spare. saw JD. seriously i dont understand why guys who are all so flirtatious have girlfriends. and they dont even intend to change at all when they got gf. their language and behavious are still as flirtatious like before. and why girls cant be like them. #@$^@#&@#!^. stupid girls. me and sarah shall form the S.G.D. slutty girlfriends duo!guys shouldnt have their way like that!

2006-06-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

hello! my comp is finally back to normal. lesson learnt: save a copy of all your files in D drive. you dont know how traumatised i am after when my cousin called and say "ni de C drive wan le". now i need a new monitor! and i miss the IT fair that day! boooooo. anyway. i m lazy to blog abt lots of stuff. went out with jas and rah that day. pls refer to www.misdirection-.blogspot.com to know more and look at sexy pic of me and of course the funneh uncle in the background.

2006-06-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

hello. its boring boring. my mum just flipped thru my report book. actually. she DONALD(how my ah bu pronounce 'dont know') how to read a report book.
mum: why so many 7s and 8s?
me: lousyyy wad!
mum: can make it into jc?
me: CAN CAN!=D
mum: oh okaye. then what ur tchr say abt u?
me: oh! the tchr say i bring laughter to the class!
mum: thats good! okaye!
ok. she's dumb. in this case, i like her for dumbness. BUT SHE FREAKINGLY REFUSED TO GO OVERSEAS! PI4 AH!my dad scolded her. but she still refused to %^*$&. she was telling me either go on cruise to penang or nowhere else!! so i just shouted NO! at her.i can stop dreaming abt aquas in thailand. boooooo. i feel so stupid now.i shall try to be nice to her tml and maybe she will reconsider abt going on cruise =[
second bad news: she is not going overseas anymore! ok. this could be a good news too. cause almost everyone she knows get to know abt her going overseas for her in-built loudspeaker. HAHAHAHAHA! LOLROFLLMAO! no more free honeymoon for she and bf anymore! bad news is of course she is gonna stay in sg and no more exciting stories from her trip:[
did math hw today! feel so accomplished! went church and i totally exposed my PINK PANTHER TAG OF MY PINK PANTHER PANTY! SARAH!!!!!::::::::::::::{{{{{{{{{{{{{
some more i only found out after the whole service and the ppl who are on MM duty today are almost all guy and this guy who sat beside me acted so weirdly today! I BET HE SAW IT! I BET HE HAD SEEN IT! I BET HE WAS SMIRKING AT IT! I BET HE IS DISGUSTED BY IT! ARGH!!!!PAISEH LAAAAAAAA

2006-05-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

gaowei=disgusted. BUT WHY! it is like a GAOWEI-ING GAOWEI! cause it's such a ogre-sounding word. bleargh. pui pui.

hello!pon first 2 lessons today! haha. so dumb. no attendance marking no shit. of course everyone will pon. but most of them pon last 2 lessons.OH! i intended to pon first lesson cause got c lit and need to do dictation.but when i reached sch enqi told me it is changed to aft sch! PI GUUUUUUUU!!!!!(BUTTTT) it didNT affect me at all cause i still refused to go! AND HERE COMES THE STUPID PART. i was sooo OVER THE MOON RAINBOW SUN IRON GIANT. CAUSE HIST ENDED ON TIME WHILE LIT STUDENTS WERE STILL HAVING LESSONS! and so i happily packed my bag and ZOOOOOOOO-PIAK!i was staring at some dummy insect when i was walking and i banged into LAO ZHENG! TAMADENEHNEH. so i still had to go for nehneh dictation tml. ZHEN SHI TAMADENEHNEHPIGU.

ooo. anw. the pics on the left are taken by me! haha. super obvious due to the blur date at the bottom right. and THOSE 2 ARE MY SEXY FEET!

2006-05-29T17:28:00.000+08:00

sun morning i went to the beach! pretty pretty. everything so pretty! taken quite a few super funny shots and met with this neh-neh violent kid. ROAR! he "innocently" tried to stop my swing when i m swinging like super high= large amount of kinetic energy= he will get hurt/PRETTY TIFEN GET HEART ATTACK.plsssss. if he had asked me i would have given him the swing. traumatising kids.
lessons were totally boring. imagine 2 and a half hrs of bio in a day! zai sarah just left strt after break. during break went to find chen wei darling! haha. super big ego he had.

tifen: ni ke yi yong hua wen tian ( fill in nomination form in chi)
CHEN WEI!: BU YONG JING LA WO XIE YIN WEN HE HUA WEN. QI SHI XIE HUA WEN TA MEN JIU ZHI DAO WO SHI SHUI LE.HAHAHAHHA

anw, after that i called up vjc to ask abt sth and i got super pissed with this MR TAN YEW HUI! i will forever rmb his name MANZZZZXXXX.

went jo hse! FUN FUN FUN! SARAH SHOW U NICE VIDEOS TML!

2006-05-18T06:13:00.000+08:00

TAGS TAGS TAGS!
zuqing! eh u pig! that day on bus i saw u and u super dao la! HORNNNNNNNS
sarah! yea yea! PINK PATHER ARSES! haha! buy the same cam! buy the same earphone!:D
gav! gavvy faster buy or u shall expect a super early lousy bday present! i lubdub you!
ying! haha! eh.i really think my answers make sense k! hmm..maybe i will get a half mark! =]

ooooooooo. hi babes! it's 4:52 am in the morning and i just finish bathing! haha. fell asleep last night while playing sudoku on my bed. C LIT PAPER IS BLOODY CLIT (i m sure sarah dunno whats clit)
OARRRRRR. the three Fugly qns under the 16 marks section is JUST-OH-SO-CONINCIDENTALLY the chapters i didnt study. greattt. i should be expecting zheng ah ma! call soon. to prevent my mum from getting any heart attacks, i confessed to my mum that i will do really badly for the midyears. i was so serious but she didnt seem to be listening. fine!

tuesday! i pia finish the whole series of e mo zai shen bian on youtube! and i slept for less than an hr:( tired tired

wednesday! after papers went far east to meet up with jaslin and sarah! jas brought me to this salon and my hair was done prettily! they even help me straighten my hair! but BEWARE of this gay looking guy. cause at first when u sit down they will put a towel behind ur neck and stuff it under your shirt right? HE ACTUALLY PULL MY BRA STRAP AND STUFF IT UNDER 'EM. fabulous service eh? then we went shopping! went bugis too. ugh. the handbag i wanted to buy got even more expensive!:( anw. bought heels. earrings and clips. hahaha! happy me! happy jas! sad sarah! awwwww

2006-05-16T13:22:00.000+08:00

i think i am the biggest ginger on earth. :( i have done.

voice sucks. please dont watch it. left 2 papers tml!!!!!! c lit can just go and die. NE quiz is crap. i answered wrongly for ALL religious-related qns. how nice. and my poor citizens. all my facilities are concentrated at one place. punggol kelong built at yishun area.funny ah-ney

2006-05-12T11:35:00.000+08:00

YOU FAILED. VERY BADLY. YOU SHALL LOSE EVERYTHING. FROM NOW ONWARDS. MOVE ALONG.

ytd sports meet is crap. sarah's purpose of going there is to take a gold medal and my purpose is to sing. joanna's purpose is to accompany jasmine. jasmine's purpose is to catch up with old/new friends and bring back fond memories. hahaha.
i m bored! aunty dont pangseh me at night!

2006-05-11T04:36:00.000+08:00

hello! yesterday was fun shit! except for the chem duh. after chem paper went to library to wait for gav and rah. intended to study but i saw manhua there! so just as i anticipated. i studied nuts and we ended up doing yoga! haha!we were half aslp and man hua picked up this book which teach readers yoga stunts that is supposedly going to help us improve myopia?hahaha! crazy book. the lady inside can totally fly in the air already. and we were making so much noise in the library that the ng-look-a-like dawrf librarian came over to sheesh us.haha. love love yoga!

went to cathay building with gav and rah and we watched poseidon! zai right! it is supposed to be out today but we watched it ytd! anw. we found that there is so much time to spare and we went hunting around the sunny side up building. nth is ready except for the cinema.and the number of security guards they have is more than the number of shops that are going to be set up at cathay luh. summore no shops is open and they are super free!so free until we go poster gallery corner at lvl4 and we kena caught. like there's no one there? nth put up yet? why catch us! ahahha. but when we got chased away we still went back after a while to take funny videos! roll with me at cathay!

went to long john to have lunch and there's this grp of lians and bengs super irritating. the lian gf was scolding the beng bf STOP ATTITUDING ME OK! U PSM IS IT! psm?! question mark.and it's because the guy is oogling st some girl i think. i think the way those ppl talk is far too extreme. as in their accent and attitude. horrible shit. summore of all table they came to sit beside us.hur. if i m sitting at the table alone i could have run for my life long ago. oh! and their favourite phrase is ON AR ON AR!
poseidon is scaryyyyy. it's not horror movie but the atmosphere is very tense throughout the show. they had bad reviews by some mags but i think it's ok what! in fact i think it's rather nice. ok.maybe i m just deprived of movies for too long. my sister is a member of tenchi! MORON IN KHEK LEH!

2006-05-10T05:13:00.000+08:00

ugh. a maths paper is totally rubbish. it had been quite a long time since i last cried due to results and sucky papers. great. i should expect the first glaring red F9 on my report book. bio is easier than expected. and for the first time in my whole life doing bio that i've got time to really finish every single qns with thinking and reading thru carefully! although i only had 5 mins left it's still a great breakthrough! but i realised the paper is so shallow, testing only on general knowledge. but i m glad that AT LEAST i know my general knowledge. and ny bio teachers evidently have a fetish over plants. we just had plant test not long ago and they tested so much on plants agn! ooo. the funniest ans i wrote in the whole paper was about this qns on llama and goat. it asks us to name another adaptation that llama has. sth like that la/ and i really had no idea what shit it has so i just pened down LLAMA HAS BIG NOSTRILS! ended with exclaimation mark.yes.haha! and got another one abt the advantage that a plant tohave asexual flowers. so i just wrote THE ANIMAL POLLINATING THE FLOWERS WILL NOT BE CONFUSED BY THE SEX OF PLANTS! HAHAHA! at leats it showed that is at least tryign to think. altho0gh quite illogical but it is still an answer! at least i wrote sth(: taking bus home with elaine everyday is real funny. especially when she's on the phone with dcube!

2006-05-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

WO DE AH YI MAMA PAPA NAINAI YEYE AUNTY UNCLE AH! wo mama gei wo mai le PINK PANTHER DE NEI KU! HAHA! WANT TO SEE? SACRIFICES WILL BE CONSIDERED UPON STRONG REQUESTS! omg. i m so tempted to give one to ah chan and one to gav! haha! all of us can wear the PINK PANTHER panty and take neos. a bit sick. but quite fun leh!
LOVE PINK PANTHER!
i so feel like scolding someone now but i dont think i should let my high-on-ecstacy-emotions to get the better of me right right? WO YOU ZI ZHI LI! shall just roar and $%^$%& Q@ in my lubdub and cerebum!
studying bio is tiring! rahh. give up. i shall just be prepared to help open and close school gates everyday during hols.haha. and u shall see my marker pens fly all over my results!COLOURS COLOURS!
and and i tell u! i miss my church! it's s0 miraculous! how how?exams faster over!

2006-05-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

someone come online! i m feeling so paranoid and uneasy when it seems like i m the only one online.where are the fourteeners!

anw. was walking on the streets just now and i saw this middle-aged woman who didnt wear bra! those two assets of hers are droopy and pointy. wonder what's she fantasizing. i didnt know aunties nowadays are so open. summore it's like ORCHARD ROAD O.O

EVERYONE LISTEN TO NO TOMORROW BY ORSON!
Funny hats, shiny pants
All we need for some romance!

2006-05-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

i hate you. u r the bitchiest of the evil sows in this bitchy world. you and you. the only ones who had thrown vulgarities on me. how slutty.how beng. how lian. you. how can u ever manage to get such a civilised cheeneh as ur bf. and you.how did u manage to get free maid to listen and accept all ur vulgarities each and everytime though u know she dont like it. bitchy ppl can get good partners eh? BUT U ALL DEFINITELY DESERVED NUTS AND METHANE FROM THEM. evil pieces of shit. who do you think u are. yes you. watch ur temper. watch ur attitude. in any way, it's worse than mine. i cant deny i am getting more vulgar recently. but it's quite remarkable and applausible for a civilised and educated person like me to stand all these rubbish from u. just flaunt off all ur wow-ing babaric languages on me. i m sooooo jealous. WOW. ppl are turning away from u. scared of you. u r the empresss. how nice. everyone is under ur stinky feet. but pls dont forget. all this ticks under ur smelly feet can tickle you to ur death one day. and look arnd u. who are around you? babarians? no. even babarians find u N times worse babaric than them. they dont even recognise u as part of them. how pathetic. thus, only ticks are with you all the time. pretending to be serving you listening to ur commands.they are just finding one fine day to revenge. cant u see? even ticks despise u. u r just a big blob of lipids under everyone's skin that everyone is trying to get rid of. how irritating. get off or get burnt. just one fine day, everyone will make u diminished from this earth.this civilise planet earth. bye bye.

2006-05-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

ur nippie "sang ack" and ur armpit botak botak!
YOU ARE MY BEAUTY QUEEN OF ONLY EIGHTEEN 18.

mum and sis came back this morning. mum got the standard ah ma hairstyle. booby shaking funny. my dad is like " ni gen ni ma ma yi qi qu dian tou fa ah? [you went to perm hair with your mum is it?]" hahaha! i bet THEY WILL NOT INVOLVE IN ANYMORE SEX ACITIVITIES IN THE NEAR FUTURE! my pitiful disgusted dad.
ate ben and jerry ice cream today! yummylicious! why oh why! i thought not long ago novena ben and jerry ice cream shop still have kiddy stools there! i want i want!:[
sarah i need ur councelling! right now! NOW!
go away u fucking beans.

2006-04-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

oh lookie, i am blogging!
a day of HOME ALONE had made me gone fuzzy wuzzy shaggy cellulity. haha! its 9.39 pm now and i tell u a stinky info. PRETTY TAN HASNT BATHE YET!
the whole day i have been eating and eating and even a lunch took me half an hour to decide WHICH MAGGIE MEE SHOULD I EAT! HAHA! two evil sows of tan family went to malaysia early in the morning. hurhur. how nice of them. i didnt study much but my hair looked like i have experimented some HIGHLY FLAMMABLE AND EXPLOSIVE experiment. mid years please faster pass.
i want to try making fondue today! but was lazy to get out of house.haha. never mind! it shall be put forward to one fo the days in post mid years schedule!:Di have FORZEN ORANGE JUICE GREEN TEA BANANA GRAPES TODAY! YUMMYLICIOUS! FROZEN BANANAS' THE BEST! TRY IT TRY IT!

2006-04-23T07:43:00.000+08:00

My girlfriend's test turned blue
We tried to play it safe
That night we could not wait
No no, this can't be right

2006-04-22T16:43:00.000+08:00

YOU BITCH! GO AWAY! YOU BELONGS TO A BUNG! WORSE THAN RACH SCH!ROAR!!!!!

SARAH IF U HAPPEN TO SEE THIS HELP ME SAY SORRY TO RACHEL. AND ANW. SARAH I LOVE YOU! I WILL NEVER DOUBT UR LOVE FOR ME EH! MUACKS!